The turth is ,
you were never once there for me ;

see people , i so nice xD updated again !
just lvled to 33 . sian lahs , thats why blog lo xDDD

dearie so fast .. lv40 le ... 3 days only leh . zzzzz
he say marry me when i lvl 50 xDD lols ! see how ~

anw dearie say today buy me couple ring for $460 ??? o.oll
true bo TT aiya ashleylau dun believe first !!!
have or nt also nvm lah ~ (=
tmr gt sch , soooooooooo boring ...
decided to choose full his and half lit . hahas , its alright ba . and im taking A-math . omg ..

yup takecares fren !

the turth is ,
i just want to spend another day with you;

hahas , sorry lurhs , updated (=
hmmm .

SICK ): sadd . coughing like mad nw . zzz
anw i successfully passed sec 3 !! yay ! i cant believe it TT
will be taking full his and half lit (= and A math .

poor weili and sandy ): hope they can get push up ..

anw i spend $30.50 on maple acash = =ll .
and i lvled 30 in just 5 days ! ;D
tues is me and dear 's anni TT he will forget ba , but dun wori i will remind him de =D

lols , will be MIA-ING . msged me if anything , dun call cos will be blocking all calls . THANKS

i wake up from my nightmare ,
and found that you are not mine anymore ;

alright , today was a good/bad day . hais , how to say ..
went orchad wif mummy at noon , dhen meet menghwee , vivien, pingkwang , jiayi , jc , alvin they all xD hahas ,
and i know a new friend today ! hoho , her name is tuutuu (nick name , she dislike her rl name)
yup , she is jiancheng 's stead to be . hahas ! dunno they stead already or nt lehhs ~
anw , went cini take neos , blahblah . dhen after vivien want meet her kor so we went ps .
hais , i knew that dear will be thr , zzzzzzzz . thats the worst part of the day .

at first they all went punk thr , then didnt see him . gooood . then me and tuutuu sit outside zone thr wait fer them lo , then this boy horh , keep walking up the stair then down the stair then up again , at least 4 times lehs . i didnt really bother to notice him at first , until tuutuu tell mie , that guy had been eyeing you . LOLS ! dhen i say ok ...
dhen omg , after the fifth time , he stop beside me and say , lets make friend , dhen giv me his phone . lols ! dhen i was like whatever lahs , giv jiu giv lo ;x
he sms-ing mie now xD , hahas his name is jason .

THEN , the worst part of the day , just when we are ABT to go , dear came wif his frens .....
zzzzzzzzz omg . i was sitting beside pk kor , then saw his figure , dhen i was lik OMG MY STEAD .
dhen alvin they all keep asking whr whr whr ? then ask me go call him ....
i dunno wht to do TT sobbs , dhen alvin go in and say pull him out .
i was super dulan ok . pull him out = i tell ppl to pull him out , he will b super angry at me lo ..
but in the end they didnt pull ^^
dhen everyone ask mie he is your stead leh , why are you so scare ? why didnt you just go say hi ? i dunno dunno really dunno ... so confusing i dunno wtf is wrong wif mie .. hais . i cant ans all their questions .. why am i so scare ? that he will giv me face again ? or what ? he wont lik it ? what is it ..

then went eat ba .. my mood drop all the way to 0 . dunwan to eat le lahs ..
dhen alvin say he wan leave first , dhen i also leave lo ..
after walk past again , i decided to say at least hi to him ba ..
but i knew he would giv me that face lik last time .. haiss .
and , lik expect , he did giv me the face = = just fling his arms to say hi . wtf .
dhen alvin is lik what a stead -.- so i go liao lo .
DHEN wtf lahs , so down le , still see caocao and his stead! walou , nwadays de ppl realli damn fuck de lo .
i wave at him , he was lik force a SUPER SMALL smile at me . _l_
suan le lo .

dhen take mrt , i cry and cry =.= tears keep flowing , i cant control it .
i dunwan spoil mye eyeliner lo , but it seriously keep coming out TT
the stupid group of ppl keep looking at me , look what look , nvr see ppl cry b4 is it ?
i keep thinking , why cant i keep him loving me ?
is break the only way ? i really dunwan to break .. i will be really hurt if break .. but if we continue like this , i will be very sad as well . yes , we are ''together'' , but i know deep down we are nt already . if i break wif you , wo bu she de .. ):
you said when im sad you would bite me , im sad nw , whr are you ? why didnt you bite me ? i want you to bite me .. last time you tell mie you love me 102% , but i think nw only left the most 30% ba ... is thr anyway that i can make you love me more again ? can you tell me how ?

i asked alvin shld i break wif him or nt .. but he say wait for 1 wk see how first ba .. shld i wait ??
i really dunwan to break wif you , can you break wif me instead ? i will feel better if thats the case ..
sometimes i really wonder why ppl stead i stead , why my stead liddat one ..
i really want to love you ):

the turth is tearing mie apart ,
why am i still holding bak mye tears ?
in this loniness thrs nth to fear .

in this lovely world ,
i tot we are fated to be together ;

HOLIDAY IS SO FUCKING BORING LAHHHHS . zzzzzzzzz
wake up , eat , slp again == then wake up , eat , play computer , watch tv , slp again ==
so whole day , i am just slping and slping . zzz
so sian , tot dear will pei wo ): but , hais , he just chiong his maple lahs .. TT saddd

just nw vivien asked mie , is last long so hard to you ?
i have been thinking , maybe yes , to me last long is very hard .
i dunno why , im sure really love him
i really want to last 3 years wif him , lik he say before . but , issit what i do is nt enough ? i tried my best to be nice to them , to spend all my time with time , to be thr for them whenever they ask me to , sms and everything , issit still nt enough ?
i just want someone who love me truly , to sayang me when i am sad , to hug me tight and say i will nvr leave you ,, issit that hard ?

the turth is turth after all .
hais , suan le . maybe love is nt for ppl lik me -.-
tmr going orchad xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
sian ah , )):

give all your love to me ,
cos thats what i need right now ;

today went kbox wif weili , sarah , cynn ;DD hahas !
SO FUNNN , I LOVE KBOX MAN . LOLS .
the stupid thing until 7pm only TT can until 9pm leh ! sian lo ..

then take 2 times neoprints . LOLS ! it is so fun lahs , will be scanning in soon ;D
hahahahhas .

holiday is sooooooooooooooooooooo boring omg TT
slp until 12pm eat then slp again . zzzzzz . cos nth to do . thinking weather make new char to pei dear play . sian lo . (:

takecares

forget about tomorrow ,
and just enjoy with me today ;

today last day of exam ! HAHA ! FREEDOM ~
went bugis with weili laopo ! hahahas xDD
lovess , was sitting outside the stores waiting for it to open = =
cos went thr too early , zz .

go thr spend $50 .. NO MONEY LE LAH ! liew , bought a jean skirt , yellow colour duno what top , and black tube (x
omg , not enough money ! i still want to buy the pink tube and the black colour hocker or dunno call wad . zzzzzz DAMN NICE LAHS , knn TT

And i combine with weili's shopping blog <3 (earn money mahs) ;D
do visit horh ! http://shoppingcity.blogspot.com
if want me link you for advertisment do tag thr xD

And tmr going wif my darlings to kbox ! yay ~ my desire (x
& dear dun so sad le lahs , my bad , i love you (:

love is what i need ,
so show me with all your loves ;

(REPOST; im sorry , this is edited .)

Everyone ! ;D
yeayea im posting again heh x33
lots of things happened this two days , makes me lose concentrate in my studies .. hais , but i really dunwan to retain just because of this -_-ll

To ******* :
i tot you were trying to b nice the other day , but looks lik i was wrong again.
stop saying you miss mie lahs come on ,,
two weeks ago , i asked you for patch ish you dunwan de lo ,
so stop dreaming that i will b on your bed or whatever happiness in the past lahs ,,
cos its all over .
wan fuck go kill your father first dhen fuck wif your mother lahs , ccb _l_
promise you it will b damn shiok lo .
& although i dun love you anymore , but i dun understand why you want to kana expel and join chup lo ...
the future ahead is yours , and i cant do anything abt it , its nt mye daiji already anw .
but as a fren , i dunwan you to do stupid things .

Credits to gary , kenn , qihan , PIG , joleen , jiancheng kor (:
hahas , thanks all of you , i finally realised how stupid i've been .
lols , this morning pig tell mie you love him so much dhen let him fuck lo . zzz .
hahas ! i know he dun mean it lahs , but dhen i went tell gary ;x
then gary say wad kind of fren is this ? kp . lols .
dhen he keep reminding mie dun trust guys too much -.-
i know lahss ,, promises are meant to be broken rights ? (:
i heard this before from Ivan two mths ago ? lols , thats the result for nt hearing the elderly ;x

For 1 thing ,
i do believe that females are made to get cheated by males ,
and sweettalks are always always the sweetest ! ;P

dhen pig tell mie he doing pcc sai . LOLS !
ask mie wan join , he pay taxi fee =.= zzzzz ...
dhen i say lazy , raining , dunwan ! lols ..

Dhen ken tell mie will find better guys de lahs ,
yea everyone says that .
But i wont believe anymore lo , just when you tot he is the ''better'' guy,
then boom ! he's just another trash . lols .

Right after i off the com , jk and kelvin smsed ask mie break wif him le ah ..
zzzzzzzzz .. I DUN WAN STEAD WIF THEM LAHS .
so say patch liao lo . ;x



For PIG :
last long with Renee alright ? Dun always qurrel with her lahs ,
aiyoo , see lah , ppl cry to you on the phone lahs , from experience tell me that she really love you alright ? Cos when a girl cry to you , she wants you to know you are very important to her (:
And i can see you love her too (: The moment you tell me you dunno wan kup or nt and in the end you didnt kup shows that you really do . Maybe just nt that must YET ;x

A relationship can only last long when both party give in (:
And feel and believe in true love when you still do alright ? Dun b like me ;D
Call mie if anything happened uh ? Always to your service !
x33 mye one& only pet pig
you are blessed by xASHH ;D

& i will pay $6.50 tmr , hais , just get it over and done with . zzz .

120407 , 150807 , 260907
dates i will nvr nvr forget ! ;D

i dun believe in forever love ,
only beautiful memories x33

someday , i swear that i'll forget
every breath that we took together ;

so sian ,, so take some zilian pics ba ((;
today ah , lost $6.50 lo . hahas ~

Math paper , actually it is quite easy lahs ,, just that i duno how to do -.- LOLS .
that thing really make me lost concentrate lo ,
do until half way start daydreaming liao -.-

Dhen after the first paper amanda say , aiyoo thinking of your zon rite .
LOLS !
dhen in the canteen that time giv them $6.50 ah .. everybody so surprise ;x

thanks fer everybody seriously (:
especially my sarah laogong and weili laopo <3
yijing and sandy was helping mie alot too ! hahahs .
loveeeeeeeeeeee you all ~

i promise i will be alright soon kk ? (:
love&misses ~

even though i know you will walk away,
my life, with you, i want to share ;

posting at 10.22am ((:
LOLS ! nw msning with this dunno wad guy sai , he damn funny sai . he said,
'' can i ask you a ques ? ''
'' wad ? '' -me
'' wad is your bra colour nw ? '' LOLS ?
'' you know for wad ? ''
'' your pic make me hot and stream '' ?_? LOL .
'' black . '' (it wasnt black ;x)
'' oh so sexy '' -..................................-ll
dhen he ask '' you dare to do kissing ? '' lols , is he lame or wad ? hu dun dare to do kissing -.- pls lahs . dhen he ask '' dhen can i kiss you ? '' no ,

yup then nvr talk le . LOLS ! lame lahs , see pic jiu horny, noob ;x
hmmmmmm new good news !
patch wif dear ytd night ((;
hahas . i was talking to gary on the phon , dhen on msn dear suddenly ask want come back to me ? lol ? i ask him why , tell me the reason first . dhen he say he gt no reason ......
but in the end i say alright and go bak to him ;x (so unlike my style -.-ll )

but then i dun really feel good abt this thing , dunno why .
i feel like he like nt like last time like that , feel so distance . haisss .
did i think too much ?

&thanks gary fer comforting me 1hr30mins ytd ! :D
& frens , no $6.50 for your YET . ;x man man wait till your die ba ;D

ILY ZONTEOZIQI (:

you broke my heart once ,
and yet i give you another chance,
to break it again .
i wish you could cherish it this time .

close your eyes ,
&let mye love be your only guild

so sad .. i broke up wif zon yesterday ... 051007 is the day .
hais , i dunno the excet reason , but i think thats the reason .
sorry , i also dunno wad im toking abt here .

i know i can ask for patch yesterday , but i really dont see the point for doing that .
i really love him alot , he say he love me alot too , but i dont see how ..
he ask me if i can prove to him about love ,
i wanted to , but i know deep inside i cant do that , therefore , i didnt patch wif him ytd ..
even if i say yes ytd , this day will come sooner or later .
we only together for 12 days , seriously , i didnt expect it to be that fast .
i tot we will last at least 4 months ...

i cried my whole night ytd .. and in the morning i gt a swollen eye ,
how nice ...
ytd after i break , derrick called to comfort me for 15 minutes (:
he do help a little , hahas , he say '' no worries lahs , you have a never ending supply of suitors '' LOLS !
then after say call bak nvr ... boxim sai .
have been reading this bk , i close it immediately after reading a few pages and cried again .
cos inside the male char said the same thing that dear promised ...
ofcoarse , the male char keep his promise and dear didnt ...
how disappointing , i really love you you know ..
oops sorry , you are nt my dear anymore ...
actually i tot of continueing the relationship without love and just give him that thing ytd , but then this morning pigpig reminded me again .. he said '' that is nt llove girl ''

i always tot that love is not base on that , and that if i give my true heart to that person he would love me back again , he just proved me wrong .
realised how true wad khoon said the other day , how fake and cruel reality are .
thanks fer all those who cheer me up yesterday and today (:
& gary is calling to comfort me ltr (: hahas .
& frens , i will pay your $6.50 on monday (:

- i would keep my promise , i would be happy because you are happy (:
i promised that i would love you even when you leave me . so i still do .

you said you will be my boyfriend,
my life partner .
all those lies and empty promises,
im disappointed .

wish that never come true,
& dreams remains as dreams ;

/MIA-ING
im sorry everyone

today EOY , totally fuck up lahs , writing compo that time write until pen no ink . lol ? how to write sai . nb _l_ . then geog no time do the whole paper . zzzz
Yesterday while toking on the phone with dear , mother suddenly come snatch mye phone sai . fuck her lahs , si woman . im sorry dear (:
And today , left mye wallet in sch under the table . lol?
no phone + no wallet = dead ?
into CrestFallen mode .

& dear ; imissyoo*

but a tag a day makes ashley happier ;D

to be there for the special someone,
is a pleasure .

okie , went to nicola meii after sch ((: hahas . didnt do much thing lahs , chit chat abit only .
today going after school that time dear's fren who act as dear msg-ed mie .
it is quite stupid actually quite lame actually , cos the very first msg he send i already know it is not him already . lols , wan play play dhen play wib him lo ;d .
reasons why i think it is nt him :
1) his first msg is hello xD .
-dear wont msg hello '' xD '' ~.~
2) his 2nd msg wrote dear, wan go mt3 wif me this sat ? why nvr go mye hse ?
-lols ? suddenly ask so many ques when its quite irrelevant .
3) his way of writing .
-his question marks are '' ?? '' , dear's question marks are ''.?''
4) when i asked him why suddenly change no.
- he say dad con phon card . any kuku parents wont con phon card and dun con phone .
5) when i say i going cine .
- he say wa exam le still go out . lols knowing dear he wont say that . ~.~
6) he ask mie say add his fren in friendster and msn .
- any normal bf wont ask their gf to add their frens email .

p.s. so dun think i am kuku , i have common sense and physiological . lols x3
then in the end , he finally tell me sorry sorry is zon tell me to lie to you and wan me to sad o.o??
lol ? suddenly abit shock and disappointed . somemore he say he tell me because he cant stand zon liddat to me, dhen still say what replacement . lols, omg i lan until nid people help me find a replacement ?
dunno weather to believe him or nt .
dhen i quite angry dhen go msg and scold dear abit .
but then he say he really love me and trust him . hais .
dhen his fren ask me for email . lols ? at that moment , to me , it is despo-ness .
in the end , decided to trust dear ba . i really love him (:

today in sch make 1 bond wif cynn , and 1 bond with amanda, weili, yijing, daphy . the bond wif cynn is realli wad lahs , is to stay until my O lvl x_x . aiyaa , know that sure lose lahs , nid pay her $2.50 . knowing sure lose still sign ._. , buy myself a wish that will never come true ba . lols ;x i am pathetic .

TRUST , its a simple and complicated word . lols .
sometimes , it is really good to just trust urself .
saw a fren today, just ditched her bf just because she FEEL like ditching .
wtf lahs , the boy damn good to her one norhs , really scacifice things for her .
and nt buy saying it , but actually show by actions . lols .
nowadays so hard so hard to find such good bf , and she just ditch LIKE THAT .
pity pity pity .

want to trust him so deeply , but scare in the end up lik him again . fucker who break every single one of his promises . hais , shldnt say abt the past anymore ((: must forget forget !

nw im at mac wif sandy and her bf xDDD hahahas ! im really scare of EOY ~ TT .
& im losing my voice TT .........

yup takecares everyone (:

behind every love story,
is that it never had a happy ending;

so sian , nw 1am le . hmmmm , today still gt sch worhx ):
today went JE lo , dao mei dao si ~.~
at first blur until sit the wrong way of train , then went library x_o
the guard stop me and say i steal his book . wtf ?
then went x-zone walk around , nothing happened . good .
dhen went fairprice help mother buy veg , come out that time drop all the coins on the floor .
haisssssss , cant stand it liao , started sniffing on the street -.-
then the passer-bys help me pick up money lo ..
go home so early , listening all my technos in the phone for the whole dayx . sian no life ._.
mother nvr scold mie at all today , dunno ish gd or bad -.-

whole day mye phone also nvr ring , so sian ._.
at 11 msged dear , found out he still mt3ing ~.~ haiss , faster go home lah ~ then he dunno say wad nid walk 1 hr then no more mrt ?? huh ?? dhen nvr reply mie le . TT *worried*
dunno whr he is now ._. hiass .
writing board spoil . stupid lahs , suan .

tmr meeting nicola meii ((: yay ~