close your eyes ,
&let mye love be your only guild

so sad .. i broke up wif zon yesterday ... 051007 is the day .
hais , i dunno the excet reason , but i think thats the reason .
sorry , i also dunno wad im toking abt here .

i know i can ask for patch yesterday , but i really dont see the point for doing that .
i really love him alot , he say he love me alot too , but i dont see how ..
he ask me if i can prove to him about love ,
i wanted to , but i know deep inside i cant do that , therefore , i didnt patch wif him ytd ..
even if i say yes ytd , this day will come sooner or later .
we only together for 12 days , seriously , i didnt expect it to be that fast .
i tot we will last at least 4 months ...

i cried my whole night ytd .. and in the morning i gt a swollen eye ,
how nice ...
ytd after i break , derrick called to comfort me for 15 minutes (:
he do help a little , hahas , he say '' no worries lahs , you have a never ending supply of suitors '' LOLS !
then after say call bak nvr ... boxim sai .
have been reading this bk , i close it immediately after reading a few pages and cried again .
cos inside the male char said the same thing that dear promised ...
ofcoarse , the male char keep his promise and dear didnt ...
how disappointing , i really love you you know ..
oops sorry , you are nt my dear anymore ...
actually i tot of continueing the relationship without love and just give him that thing ytd , but then this morning pigpig reminded me again .. he said '' that is nt llove girl ''

i always tot that love is not base on that , and that if i give my true heart to that person he would love me back again , he just proved me wrong .
realised how true wad khoon said the other day , how fake and cruel reality are .
thanks fer all those who cheer me up yesterday and today (:
& gary is calling to comfort me ltr (: hahas .
& frens , i will pay your $6.50 on monday (:

- i would keep my promise , i would be happy because you are happy (:
i promised that i would love you even when you leave me . so i still do .

you said you will be my boyfriend,
my life partner .
all those lies and empty promises,
im disappointed .