Hello all my faithful readers ,
i know you are excited to see my blog :D

okay . today someone spoil my mood ): im suppose to be happy cos im getting my zak helm today !
congrats me ? hahas .


anw , sandy read my blog finally , in fact i have always wanted her to read it .
and she felt ''guilty'' and say sorry for forgivness .
i told her i would think for a day , but now readers , my answer is


I would not forgive her .


im nt a mean person , i dont just angry at people for no reasons , and im nt even angry at her at all .
i just cant see any ''guilty-ness'' in her apologise .
although you did cried during chinese lesson and manage to get weili's pity (nice one)
but when i see you cry , i dont feel a thing , happy maybe . lols .

to me , you just cried because either
1) you scare you had no more frens to go recess with
or
2) you are sad that so many people fame you and your blog .


The reason i was nice still 2days ago was because of something .
nt convience to say here , and im nt going to tell you too .
i was planning to play cold war with you on monday , but now there's nt a nid .
yijing and weili went Mac with you because you are treating them .
money can buy friendship .
you shld know by now what yijing is like right ?


And there's nt a need to break up with jiahua becos of me .
Somemore , if you brk wif jiahua you would just gib me more troubles .
He would come calling me and i would be speechless as usual then
im back to square One .


but if you still want to be my friend as in that kind of friend~ , i dont mind .
if you use tears as your way though problems and buy other ppl's pity ,
then so can i (;
want to play ? bring it on (;

p.s. dont stick to weili like a dog please ~.~

Just finished my english compo (:
Like the teacher says , the more you write the more garbage you generate .
So , why bother to write so much ?


after reading this , sweet readers like you will know what im feeling now i guess (:
im FUCKING angry now , plus a little bit of sadness .....

Eager to know what happened ? Dont be anxious , i will tell you one step by one step .


AshleyLau came to school with a light heart in the morning ,
but because of her sweet bestfriend's request , she was book again for late for school ,
so she is going detention soooooooon .
yes , how wonderful (:
And then , there are 2 tests in a row . and she gt 0 marks for one . haaas .


Sorry abt boring storys , NOW lets skip to the most exciting part !
she received a letter from her sweet friend weili , it was like this .
during chinese , ashley's best friend sandy wrote a long and lovely letter to weili .
And after weili show it to ashley (:

Interested abt the content of the letter ?
i WILL read it to you readers , one word by one word .

''........................ Chinese is SO BORED ?!?! USING UR PEN NOW !! write big big ! haha ... I got new Bf !!! lol !!! Name called JoJo . Quite cute . I met him ytd . So ironic ... he and I wearing black skinnies lol ... wahaha ... When You gonna find your JJ lin ?? HAHA !! But I love my Jia hua ... JoJo onli try try de .
I CANNOT BELIEVE ASHLEY DID IT WITH MY BOYFRIEND !!!
urgh nvm . I forgive her . Mostly because i am very nice , loving , compassionate . Rartly coz she's mah best friend ( and euu too DarDar !!) See my heart so gd . (: fuck my Bf I forgive ... lol !!! Ash Damn farni la !! ehh...
euu muz rite for miie too kayz ?! ^_^ tk!muackx!
sandy bleahxx ... ''


OMG . i tell you . my heart and brian is burning with FIRE ?
I FORGIVE HER ????? OMG . I REALLY WANT VOMIT BLOOD LE .
HE WAS MY EX-BOYFRIEND . WE FUCKED WHEN WE STILL STEAD .
I DID NOT do ANYTHING wrong AT ALL .

i think as a friend , i do one to the very end .
the fact that you ''snatch'' my boyfriend indirectly is almost unforgivable .
and YET , i forgave you .

if you are my bestfren , why didnt you think abt my feelings at ALL ?
i dont mind losing him to anyone else out there , but to a friend that i trust for so many years ?
i really cannot take that .

I see now , if you are too nice to others , they will just eat you up .

hmmmmmmmm .
the post for today is : why girls/boys need to find boyfriend/girlfriend ?
extract from yumiko dardar 's blog !
<3 yumiko dardar ~ you really did put some sense into my brian ._.


i admit that it is happy when you are with a boyfriend/girlfriend .
but think abt it deeply again , at this age of ours .
out of 100 relationships , i think there is only 1 that last .
then why do people want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend then ?
when brk that time , wont you feel even more lonely and hurtful then before ?
im nt saying we shldnt have a boyfriend/girlfrend ,
but think twice about the consiquences before you have one .


-although i dont visit people's blog much , (becos im busy mapling) but i think , its a blessing to have someone writing abt you secretly . its so sweet when you read it >.<


ANYWAY , today . im sickkkkkkkkkk .
i ALMOST fainted in school again -.-
now i suspect i had some sickness or wad . not like im having menses or stomachache .
how can i just want to faint like that ?????
its so scary T_T my whole head is like no blood pump up at all , my lips is like wad ,
icy cold ? And i cannot even see a single thing -.-

& thanks dear for your starhub top-up <3
love ueeeeeeeeee . muacks . haaaas .

我相信明天會更好

okay . i dont know what to say .
have been feeling moody for the past few days ):


since when had friendship become so magnificient ?
im not sure , things that is happening around me make me lost faith in friendship .
i am always aware that the world is full of lies and cruelty .
to find a really trustable person , is like finding a diamond in the sea ._.

but yet , i had believed that there are true friendship .
but this few days , i see my mistake .
backstab and betrayal is what i see only .


now i realised its okay to lost my loves , no matter who .
as long as i find a better one it will be fine :D

愛你是我唯一生存的理由

im lvl 63 . stuck , because marmie come back singapore le . lols .
sian bod0h .

school is really starting to get terrible >:(
i just want a peaceful live ._. but unfortunely , things doesnt go the way you want to ):
yesh , today is a ''GREAT'' day .

EARLY in the morning , ms Tan called me out for a little talk (:
its about me and my ''illness'' because i didnt go to school for 3 days last week .
Lols , i just told her that my menses cramps are really really bad ,
which is true .
because my cramps are really bad .
and ofcoarse she didnt supect that one .
but she told me im Not cropping well , for Chem & A-Math .

Oh well , i know im nt cropping well , because i didnt do her homeworks -.-
and i add-ons my plan for A-maths .
she said i cannot drop until the end of the year ): signs . nid to suffer another pretty year .


my morning call is LATE again .
SO , im late for the bus , and i didnt wear my PE attire !
GREAT ! no choice , write another letter abt menses cramp -.-
and have another little talk with Mrs Chen . WOW ?
she say , so are u quitting swimming or not .
Oh my god , i look like a stupid girl just nodding my head for okays .


her ''deal'' is RIDICULOUS !
she say if i dont improve for my next test , and i cannot quit swimming .........
im pointing middle finger to her (inside my brian)
outside i nod my head though .......
And chionging homework again , and then found out i lost my ss workbook , dead tmr .


My School life is SO not peacful ._. ha-ha .



And sandy have start to msg zon & jiahua .
Oh well , i didnt say anything abt her achieve-ness .
but seriously DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP inside im not that satisfied . Somehow .
Jiahua think we have silent break-ed .
i did not like this , so im going talk to him in msn tonight .
i will give him the choice to break up , & i decided to try help sandy , so maybe jiahua will stead wif her instead .
By using Zon's method . Just like how he push me to jiantat .

My Ex-Boyfriend & My Best-Friend . Perfect Match ??????????


Not sure . i want to use Zon's method and see what jiahua will do .
Will they really stead tgt ? O.o

All of you might ask me why am i doing this ,
i can always snatch back jiahua , there's still time . i know i have the potential and skills =x
but , what for .
We tried to be together 2 times , i tried my best , and yet .
we cannot even last more thn 10days ?
if this is so , i rather give up , maybe its better this way .


For Zon , seriously , saying im over him already is a lie .
everytime i realised he have a new love , i will smile at myself . For he had find someone better .
i think if sandy and zon stead , i will stay at home and cry ._.
but i would send them my regards ofcoarse .

stupid me .
and they are going out on sat , hope they have fun (:

rofl . im lv 59 . hahahaha .
so sian rights .? tmr im going to wake up at 8am to find map .
(: gt a new maple dear . hoho .
he is nice , he gib me many stuffs and cash too (:


yup . then i was thinking abt zon again when i heard a song .
and then , he went online .
he tok wif me , he wish that i could have a good dear soon too .
he say he wish his r/s to be 1year + . i ask him to jiayou and wish him luck .
then he change his pm to smth abt his dear too .


then i know , i had choose the right choice .
people need to move on . we cannot hang on a person forever .
yea ?

愛は幸福についてある

erm , i haven been posting for awhile .
anw my blog is dead .


partically , no one is tagging at all .
so means , not alot of ppl is reading this , thats why they dun tag ?
or
just dunwan to tag . grr . whatever .

today went out wif sandy at first to meet her bf , then after that i go mee xBaByFrOst and his fren . walous , i know another rich guy . LOL . he pay all the taxi fares , movie ticket , and he treat us to thai restautant .
hahaahs .

went home mquite early , im lv58 nw . aiyaa . you know , i ytd sell my bwg for 3mil
LOL . it is suppose to be 33mil . =x

wahahas . im so pro . nw i wan spend all my money on gacha sai !
xD .

dont cry because it's over ,
smile because it happened ;


ytd 10++ jiahua come my hse ton :D
lols . we watch initial D , play maple . etc .
zzz , but then at 4am liddat he say wan go home ._. then toke nightrider home .
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz . sian . im super tired lehs !


the next day need to wake up at 9am and meet aaron pig at ps . zz
and then when im on the mrt , he still haven bath -.-
so he ask me go seragoon find him first . sian lorhs .
i bought his cigg but then no lighter ........ LOL


then we went cityhall irc lanshop thr meet his frens for zakum quest .
stupid lahs , they play delp then only 5 ppl pt , lols , dmg nub ,
then after act dc dun play liao . LOL .
then after go take bus down ps wif his frens . aiya , i pon tution lehs .
at first dunwan de ... then his fren eat super slow zzzzzzz
then must watch the 3.25pm show . no time go le .


btw the fat guy SUPER rich lo .
he treat 7 of us to lan , 7 of us for kfc , 7 of us for movie ticket !!!! =x
aaron was like , next wk i also go out wif him le . LOL

for you .
all the things that you are telling me is just LIE LIE LIE !
wtf . why cant you just leave me alone or smth .
you dont know how hurt i am ,
i just want to forget all the moments we had .
im getting really tired .

無論多深厚的愛情，始總會變舊

today i pon school . lols .
si jiahua , say 12+ come find me . asshole say nid go down yio chu kang cannot so early come .
fker , shld have go to sch . Lols =x


after that sandy come my hse give me homework (:
so chiong maple the whole morning . sian lorhs , 90% die . zzzz
then after derrick cor me to go j8 go out wif his fren .
then i cancel the meeting wif yinqing , dun feel like going watch movie ba .
after i let derrick drive zon's car in mt3 . lols .
i found out zon is really famous -.- after derrick use my card , all his frens come ask him .
whr you get zon's card ? lols , they all know zon de sai =x
stupid derrick wan clone zon card -.- i was like using all my strenght to snatch back .
if tio clone ah , i dunno wad happen le . zzz


after that his frens want to go ps .
earlier zon ask me go ps find him also , so i cor zon lahs .
then go up find him , give him back his card .
hais . maybe he was nice to me because he want back his card .
after i told him just nw i use your card at j8 .
then he tell me he know already lehs !!!!
LOL . cause his fren just nw was at j8 also , then tell him . -.- liddat also can !!


then after i leave wif derrick to go home .
so sian , also nth to do . otherwise watch zon play 3 hrs meh -.-
hais .
aaron msg me . say tmr his zak quest cancel , dunwan go le .
zzz i askhim u dunwan watch movie mehs . then he say , wan but only we two go like guai guai .
LOLs . hais , nvm dun go then dun go . i dun care le lahs .


just nw i read the email that andrew send me .
then i cried .
he said i could change , and forget all the things in the past .
he said dun regret things until its too late , nw still can change .
can mahs , can a person really forget all the things that happened ?
do you say forget then forget ?
i dont know , but i will try ba (:

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你

nw to think back , i found that in the past we are really childish .
in a way that we never think before we do .
abt the consequences , the future .
everything we do , there is a consequences .
as young , when we do wrong things , teachers , parents forgive us .
but sometimes what is gone is gone , no turning back .


i wish that time could go back , so that i could correct all the mistakes that i did in the past .
i found myself changing alot during the recent years .
parents always say that they scare their kid turn ''bad'' ,
but what is the defination for ''good'' and ''bad'' ?
i dont blame them for thinking that way , in their eye , it might be ''bad''
but when you see it in another positive , it might become ''good'' somehow .


i always think that those ahbeng & ahlians is nt the ''bad'' kids .
in fact , i found that they are much more muture than those protected kids outside .
you might think im talking rubbish here , i dont blame you as well .
every single person had their own set of thinkings (:

eh so bored . my mother take my connection again .
zzz . so i end up using wireless@ sg .. always dc sai .


and xiaoprince cor me at 8+ go down give back thumbdrive .
at least there are smth to do . -.-
but i wore zon's shirt down !!!! GRRRRRRR .
regrets nw . T.T sobbs .
the smell is already fading , and after i wore it , it fade even more . -.-
i want another shirt T.T T.T sadd .


rawr .

FUCK FUCK FUCK .
am i too easy to get cheated ?
yes tio play AGAIN . wonderful uh ?


_l_ lj . that stupid asshole after 1 day wan break wif me le .
say what dun like me le . fuck .
nvm abt him , nt like like him that much .


THEN , zon's ''BRO'' duno him or wad come kpkb to me for ?
FUCK LAHS . act nice . act nice for WHAT . very fun uh ?
wan play issit ? dun gib back ur card wan ?
i burn it ah . nub .


i flirt , YEA i flirt , SO ? cannot issit . bth then fuck off can ?
u rmb . is YOU SAY gib up me de . dun regret things and come scold me
you very sad or wad . lame sai .
like u will cry for me . think i stupid issit ?
k lahs . even i stupid so ? u play me liddat very fun issit ?
fuck . i super piss can . so more that STUPID kia play ks .


sry say so many fuck . i am really really REALLY piss .

i want to be thr for you ,
like no one else before ;


& i finally know the ''real'' reason of his ,
he said because his bestfriend like me , so he give up .


wtf ? im nt sure if this is really the rl reason .
but if it is , then i think its pathetic .


your bestfriend like me .
SO ?

do i like him ? no .
do i want to be with him ? no .


i dont think love is abt giving your precious ones to someone .
which she dont even wish to .
if i really is to love a person , i will never give him to someone else , no matter who she is .



& i have stead with johann :D
cos menghwee say he have someone on his mind , then i ask johann hu ,
then he said was me . LOLS .
o6o1o8 ; 01:11hrs x3

haahs , btw went ps with dar and JOEY AIAI !!
our one month anni ~~~~~~~~~ T.T
we watched im the legend . its quite boring ;x



p.s. WEILI YOU SHLD HAVE CAME ):

if you kiss me now ,

i know you'd fool me again ;

Meeting you was fate ,

becoming your friend is a chioce of falling in love ,

with you was beyond my control .

i know love is not everything , but i still cannot control the hard feelings inside .
although everyone tell me to 'forget' him and dont think too much .


but is forgeting someone this easy ? Is it possible to really forget someone ?
i dont know . Maybe others can , but im clear that i cant do it .
Someone you love so dearly 1hr ago and had just become such a stranger .
do people change just like that .?

or

is it everything a lie .?


But ,
it doesnt matter anymore .
because , you did make me happy .
even everything is just a lie . its okay .
even if it is just a little little while , im contented .

all those facts ,

i dont wish to know .

im back to square 1 . -.- GREATS .
today is NOT good . i see elan soh ! and THEN wah god really helping me lehs , the stupid teacher actually cannot come today , LOL .


at first i was so happy ... cos going his hse play play today (:
then we went the 2 people sauna ~ 45 mins nia . so short liddat !
then went ps eat dinner . fcuk the uniform . the skirt super long . sian .
and cannot go inside the arcade . he standard one lahs , go inside mt3 -.-
make me wait outside ..... zzzzzzzz . i took his name tag and mt3 card btw .


then so he ply play i say go home first , ltr mother scold ah .
that time he still ok de . like say message me ah and i go home call u all this , and ask me go out next time all this .
on the mrt also , but dunno why after i reach home . he totally change into a different person ):
so sad . then he ask one girl cor me , say she is zon's stead .
hais . now then i find out he had been timing me for 4 whole mths ._.
although i do suspect before , but like i say , all those facts , i dont wish to know .


anw i cha wif the girl , fcuk that zon always lie . anw we tok tok then comfort eachother ,
then we become frens then she break wif him too ;x
maybe it was part of his plan , but i doesnt matter uh ?
although i still think there is a reason that zon break wif me . (he said there are one too)
he say i will know soon .. hais .


anw we became good friends ! orh i took one shirt from his house . it smell damn nice !
i had been hugging it everywhr and sniffing it ;x
surprise im nt too sad this time , just have headaches .
btw i eaten alot of pills , so god plsplsplspls dun let me ******** ah T.T
(i gt a feeling i wont) :D


AND nw his bestfriend want jio me .. wtf . then zon say give him 1 chance lahs .
walou eh , haven std yet ask for sex le . wtf -.- nt acceptable . and i do look for shuaiges ;x
LOLS . hmmm . btw the chem teacher say my eye is nice :D so happy !