in school english class (:
life is SO bored man .
and


dear is ignoring me D: xiao qi gui , dun care him :x
im sooooo nt contented =.= so im still lvl83 .. super slow man .
how am i going to get to 100 by next mth ? D: sob .

nbm . i WANTED to jump down the building and die D:
im serious T________T
it is soooooo boring , if i jump down and thats it ! wake up in hell uh ? (:
hope there's no hell and heaven too ~.~ , so after i jump down i wont go anywhr ..


but if thr is one , i will sure go hell .. zzz .
see those buddish movie is so scary , they gt their tougue cut out or smth ,
then those that commit suiside had to do smth else ..
it is super disgusting ............. eeyer , maybe shldnt jump ~.~


other method to die is , get poison :D:D yay .
it will be easier way =/
just simply eat up all the pills in my mother's drawer ,
ALL of them . thr gt around 700+ pills ? O.o
sure die ba .. so i will vomit white bubbles , and lock myself in the bathroom ^_^
hope nobody sent me to the hospital until i die ):


im so bored that i am thinking of ways to die >.<
oh well , really bored larrrs . provided that SOMEONE is ignoring me , and encoraging me die too ^_^
shld i go slp ltr ? :O

Sometimes , i really dislike some proud people .


i think its okay to be proud of yourself ,
sometimes it might be really retarded =/
but what matters is to be able to laugh at yourself and your mistakes.


Every single person want to be smart ,
and please others with their ''brilliant'' answers/concepts

We all fear failures ,
we worry that others would laugh at other failure
we are afraid of trying .



Perhaps , some people nid to get rid of this "I'm-too-good-for-the-world" attitude =/
and just learn their mistakes when others laugh at their retard-ness (:




P.s. i gt a new tagboard , and a new link , i haven even spread it yet .
some anti-me people already start tagging that they hate me ):
hmmm , your are really free uh ? I didnt know my life is soooo interesting >.<

thanks !

You know why im posting ?
Cos , im nt mapling .


Why am i nt mapling ? Cos some fk up things happened ._.
and + some irratating freaks in msn .
really wan to just shut the computer , but zon is cheering me up .
oh well , awhile more ba ..


oh , he is advising me to quit maple -____-
no way man .. >.<
and he is the one who mega like siao last time -______-
i know i will regret wasting all these money on maple in the future la ,
but im just nt satisfied nw :D


anw . back to main topic .
i hate my fucking attitude . you see , i had no reason to be angry at anyone ,
and im just getting fucking mood-less becos of this ?
im one weird person =/
and the xiao qi gui , maybe i shld go bak to settle this after i type finish ..
if only i have mega ): , i would be having a mega war fight nw T_____________T
i wan mega ...................
feel like running down the 7-11 and just rob the cashier .__.


he mega that thing , which to add on to my fury =/
seriously nw , i dun mind using my 40mil to buy all the megas ...
nvm abt maple .


yea and how nice , i just shut zon off wif my attitude too -.....-
nw everyone hates me .
fantastic uh ?

You're My Estasy (:

(: finally posting after so long . haha .
im sorry my beloved readers )=
im deeply addicted to MapleStory .
maybe i shld quit for some time ...................................


when im lvl 100 :D .



seriously , i really hate flirters & two-timers .
especially those that flirt which my good friends , i will grow really protective

and ..

hong them myself :D

i want them to know what is the taste of getting ditch by the one you love =/
oh well , im just trying to be nice ...

but my dear friends dun seem to get it ,
and they tot i want to steal their crush )= how heartbroken im ...



And the two-timers .
i really dun get what is so cool or enjoyable abt two-timing =/
wont you feel really guilty two-timing ?

Cos i tried once .. for 2 days , and it sucks D:
i grow impatient and brk wif the previous one immediately )=

when i was two-timing , im worried that my another dear would find out somehow ,
and i wont want the other one to have any physical contact wif me -.-ll


some people might go showing their friends textes and say ,
''ohhhhhhhh see , im so popular ! thrs 2 guys crazy abt me ~ '' <---lame .
to me , its just a waste of money & its so irratating man >.<

so why bother to two-timing right ? (:



and .
i miss my lovely dear ):
1 day without msging him , i feels like i am in hell D:
i gt no money to top up my phone again T______T it sucks man .

i cant imagine my days without him )=
hope that day will never ever come ..

I remembered someone tell me a story before,
about a boy and the starfishes .

"A boy was walking by the seaside , he was the only one there . and all the starfishes in the sea were wash up to the shore by strong tides as starfishes cannot survive long without water, they are all going to die if no one is going to put them back into the sea . There are too many starfishes , the boy could not help all of them , so he only throw a few back into the sea . Because of this , it stops the starfishes from extinction ."

And the conclusion of the story is just by doing a small little move , it might have a huge impact on others .


But then ... this thought appear on my mind immediately .
After i saved others ,
who is going to save me ?


Yes , im a selfish person .
You might think so now , but again ,
is'nt it human instinct to be selfish ?


Everyone do smth for a purpose , or a benefit they want to gain .
we be friend with a A-star student is because we want to gain more knowledge from them , etc


Nothing last forever .
i know that friends , Lovers would all leave me one day .
In the end ,
I only have myself to relay on .

勾勾手，答應我，你永遠不會離開我

did i post too much ? D:
no choice >< too boredddddddddddd .


im suppose to do my Amath test ....
but too lazy :D:D LOL . after posting pa (:
tmr must go see the Mrs Poh ): im abit scare ~.~
her eyes is scary man . rofl .
tmr musttttttt go T_________T
and A-math test . hope i can pass ): haissssssssss .


what else shld we tok abt ??
hmmmmmmmmm .




i know !!

my love for my baby ! ~.~
just to say im deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeply in love with him :D lols !

EL english again ! rofl . it is so fun man .
cos WE CAN DO ANYTHING WE LIKE (:

haha . i change my post to 3 post per page . Cos i dislike some ppl kip reading my old post =.=
my life is nt interesting , infact it is super boring -.- dun boring reading yea .

anw im lvl80 !!!! check the ranking (; whaahahas .
thanks LOUIS :D:D:D and mic giving the the 2x exp .
so nice man. changing hairstyle soon .

ytd spam dear's megas . ps man =x left 2 only . LOLS !

then dear ytd gt beaten up D:D: 3 ppl aim my dear ><

so bad ! he gt beaten by some hard thing on the back , nw whole patch of blue black ):

sobb . get well soon (:

THIS IS DAMN CUTE MAN ! espically the first one and the last one =x

我愛你，不管明天還在不在

Nothing much to post actually , dun feel like writing
ahahaha , lvl 78 .

Lolsx . i super lucky nw sai , ytd micheal (DJNoobie) agreed to help me chiong after after he lvl120. but nw no nid wait le . Cos Louis(xReddishhh) help me chiong lvl sai =x hoho .

hope i faster lvl100 man >.<
love my dear :D

hello all (:
sorry i dun feel like blogging this few days .

basically, im just slping at home noramlly . except ytd (:
its really fun. i wake up at 9am , and went meet my wenwen (redxcode) & WindGraceX's gf (tinkle) . Wenwen is really pretty >.<

yea then we take cab down to Crossfire. Lols , so many ppl thr worhx ,
gt xXahhweeXx , NiuNiuDK , WindGraceX , DJNoobie , YiJiaRen92 , WenWenCrus , xXlaohowXx , randy , xXba0xx , th3cuteMe , xReddishHh , CleanpapeR . and many more . lols .

At first when we go thr is damn sian lars . Cos the whole lanshop is fullhouse ,
Everybody was zaking , then tinkle gt her bf to zak for her ,
so me and wenwen is damn sian lar .
only stay outside thr watch them smoke -.-


after , wind bring all of us to eat . Lols .
at first i dunwan eat , but nvm lar , gt wind treat =x
that ahhwee quite funny lar , say wenwen look like korean =x

then we tok tok then go bak CrossFire , then after gt computer to play liao .
thr damn gd , like bunk liddat , gt prelium exp . haha damn fast lars .
then the bao kip asking me maple nt sian meh . waa u more lucky can lv liao .
lols -.- then wenwen die 5 times . LOL . so funny =x

After the WarCannon msg me he went cf too .
then when i go find him then he go dc -.- assh0le =x
oh ! randy look damn cute lar . like smallboy liddat -_-
then ahhwee was like dun see he smallboy liddat , very zhai de worhx =x


But at night some idoit hack reddishhh acc -.- , all members except jr tio kik .
dia0z . nw recuiting bak . dj say kik whole guild even btr .
can kik all the unactive and low lvl one , last time fren here fren thr can0rt >< lols .


kk update again soon . lvl 77 x3 bye .

Notice: My Phone Spoil ):

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone (:


thanks all for tagging . Muacks .
today is boring man . My valentine day sux like hell can -.-
The stupid lit teacher eat our whole recess , wth . i super hungry lahs .
BUT , our presentation was like the best =x hahaha so proud !


The Chem test was difficult -.- i sure fail it lorx .
but no math test cos it was too late . The teacher like wan cry liddat . LOL !




today suppose to go out wif dum (dunno his rl name) to watch movie at ps .
But he nvr contact me , even btr . dunnid to go . lolsx .
sian bod0h .



Ohhhhhhh . derrick gave me the 50k ^_^ horhor .
but i had to scarifice tmr's nap to go out wif him ):
but nvm lar , 50k lehs !
he nw like everyday wan ask me patch .
hais , so fan de lor .


I realise my change of heart is so big =O
he used to be the most important person in my life .
To the point that im willing to die for him :O
even 5mths after we brk , i still crazy missing him ;
but nw , he is like nthing to me =
weird nee . i even hang all his cors . LOL .


thanks all the ppl hu gib me flowers today xD
so happy ~ although it is pathetic-LY 3 sticks only ...
but nvm , still rose =x (its dieing)

我忠心我爱的人♥ I Love Brandon Dear (:

Updated @ 12.48AM (:
hahahas , know why i update ? Cos i lvled ofcoarse =x


Valentine's Day is just around the corner ! 2 more days ! (:
And , i smell the loninesss from it -_- LOL .


For me , im going to do the following things :
1) run home after sch .
2) Jump on my bed and have a nap
3) wake up on the computer and start maple :D


LOL . maybe maple is nt that boring after all <:
but the sad thing is , in aqulia , i cant find anyone that will hear my xinshi ):
except my lovely dear ofcoarse ~

Now i see like Alex erzi say , Cass gt more nice ppl lehx =O
last time in cass , i gt many many heartcore fren ! Lols !


Nvm abt maplestory ,
althought im nt having a lover for valentine this year ,
im going to spend it in maple wif my dear instead (:
hope it is fun too ~

(i rmbed the last year one was super boring wif ***** -.-)


My Valentine Wishes are :
1) Everyone to have a happy day xD
2) My maple to be lvl 100 by then . <--------LOL , dreaming
3) Dear to love mie more , & last long long long wif him (:


I loveeeeeeee my dear ~~~~~
he is must zhuzhu-ing nw xO
poor thing worhx , I Love You !

Even though i believe promises are meant to be broken ,
but really really wish can last wif you till next year valentine (:
I will try my best to kip this feeling . hope you do too .
Good Night !

HI EVERYONE(:

PLS GIVE ME A TAG EACH
to kip my blog alive
thanks!
im too lazy to blog. wait till i lvled.

Sometimes ,when i stare at my own pictures .
i really feel like murdering the person inside ...


Like im looking at a pathetic person , feel so so useless .
other people always say a person sure have somethingthat he/she is gd at ,
but nw i think , i have no contribution this this world at all ...
You see , my studies is no gd at all , then im nt gd at partically everything ~
Even in computer games , im more lousy then other people -_-ll


Im nt a gd listener too , trying to cheer them yp
but end up making things worst ......
haix .. whr gt ppl until so shi bai like me -________-


Anyway , ytd went cynn hse collected $22 (:
it was quite fun (:
then after went down bugis buy my dress FINALLLLLLLLLLLLY ~
the pink colour no more .. zzzzzz . loser sai T_T
but i bought white , looks fine .
will be uploading pic tmr when i wear it (:


& i just realise i went out of pills -.-
means i might faint on the street again ... zzzzzzz
hope mummy faster buy for me ):


p.s. I LOVE DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR xD

我只好把我想说都放在心里，因为我只想要你开心

my heart feel so pain so pain !
im so a bad and lousy gf ! ):


i dunno why i wrote such things ytd ,
you must be abit sad ):
then you forgive me so easy , you shld have scold me you know ~


im sorry abt at night that thing too ):
even thought you make it so clear that you only love me ..
i somehow get abit jealous -.-
soooooooooooooooooooooooorrrryyyyyyyyyyyy (:
i love you (:

break my heart; like what break yours .

Hello Readers again (:

i feel like posting this ,

hmmm . i had always think that online steads are Lame

i mean , okay lar . Why do you need a online boyfriend/girlfriend ?

so you say you are trying to make the game more intereting ?

Which actually wasted your time accompanying them instead of training (:

OR

do you fall in love with a 2D grapfic ?

actually you fall in love with the person playing the char (:

but whats the pt of doing this when you never going to meet him/her ?

although i always tell people this ...

but at the end of the day , i just reliese im doing the same ._.

how retarted .

Happy Chinese New year Readers !
thanks for reading my blog even for chionging hongpao time !
haaha (:


and poor me have no hongpao at all ! ><
my mother haven even give me yet ...
let me see .. this year $5 dollars ??? better then nth ba (:
ahhhhhhhhh . so bored so bored ! i really wish cynn would come today (:


ytd was FUN . shldnt have go to sch , slp all the way ~.~
then , after folo sandy to her sister sch for smth matters to settle xO .
after we take bus to my hse , then went lunch wif mummy :D
seafood is good ~~~~~ im getting fatter by the days ):
(just like the fortune ticket says -.- )

After , went to sandy hse again for reunion dinner =x
oh , the day before at msn was funny :D
i was talking to zon , then he say he free during afternoon ,
then i say cannot i only free during nightime , cos he have reunion dinner wif relatives .
then i say dun go laas , i eat reunion dinner wif you . LOL .


so , at her hse after streamboat . then her sis work in the salon last time :D
then she was washing our hair like pro wif message can ! so shiok ~
i said i would go her hse for hair wash everyday . haha .
after we were comparing boobs can -.- LOL .
sandy naughty sai , duno what she did at joshua hse eaerlier on =x
gt one mark thr . LOLLLLLLLLLLLL . liar tell us she kiss nia !

then then at night we went chinatown watch firework(: just in time !
after that go walkwalk , buy sumthings .
oh no , better go bugis and buy my dress faster , ltr my money all use up -.-
went home at 3 liddat , then play maple for another hrs (:
can lvl by toay ba ~


&lastly , I LOVE BRANDON DEAR(:
(shy mahs ? xD )

hi readers (:

I did not update much recently , due to heavily maple chionging =x

im lvl 70 priest with HOG & helm (:

and please dont abandon my blog.

Erm , school is horrible ~

i gt an egg for A-Math ._. but then i gt quite good for E-Math (:

thats great >< now waiting for sandy .. half an hour le . suppose go bugis one wif weili oso . I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she promise people things nvr do ): assh0le one .
im really abit angry ):
AND I DECIDED , after i write finish this , im going home (:


ytd went out wif derrick and guanhua .
derrick at mrt keep hugging me say i miss you ._.
i keep pushing him off , but then the last time i nvr push -.-
*feel so asheme of myself* T_T

updated (:

today gt my helm . im so happy at that moment !
you can ask sarah :D
hahahahaa . i was smiling like crazy xD
the stat nt bad , 14 15 16 17 .
thanks RANDY (:





next , i have something to clarify .
the sandy stuff , i dont care anymore .
i heard some ppl had been disliking me for being too ''open'' ,
cos i shouted it in my post .
Lols , so ? Cos i dont give a damn (:
have fun cursing me .

tot abt it .
Maybe i shld be frens bak wif sandy , just be normal frens lor .
no harm also (: haha .



spent another day crying . My eye swollen .
i am so weak .
i wanted to change , but then why is people also think of me still like tat ):
is it because of the past then cannot change anymore ?
it doesnt abt how any other person think of me ,
but someone which you think impt to me is also thinking the same .
it feel like shyt .