nobody appreciate anything ,
so dont try to change yourself for someone ;

ahhhhh , im so bored .
nobody wants to accompany me >< . which make me think to the 'wrong' things again ;x its just a random post (: dont read it , its long

thinking of the past , my happy family ! :D
daddy , mummy and me .
together to ocean park , living in the house , eating dinner together ; etc .
the real smile and laughter which i can never own again .
everything changed , in the year of 2001 .
did i made a very wrong choice ?
i just want to be a normal person .

here is a question , what is a normal person ?
a normal person cry when they are born .
a normal person have a complete family .
a normal person study in their own country .
a normal person work to earn money to support their family .
a normal person wants to be loved .
blah blah blah ..

im suppose to be a normal person too .
and , in the year of 2001 . this choice of mine father change something .
because of my amazing IQ (cough) , i qt this scholarship . Lols .
only mummy and i come to this deserted country without a single friend or relative .
oh ? human do survive when they are force to (:
ofcoarse , with cash .

This cause a little family breakdown .
small little me had lost fatherly love TT
looking outside the window at dinner and cry was my favourite thing to do everyday then .
After he come out , daddy changed alot .
And yes , people do change due to sudden solution .
p.s. im nt saying he treat me in a nt good :X
i once overheard , he say to my mother that 'if you dont give me , i dont give you this month's money .'
issit it pathetic ? haha .
everyone is pathetic , yes i am pathetic too .
people tend to stuff themselves with something that is nt true . To escape from the cruel truth .

愛? this world have mahs ?
you may ask me , then why do you have a BOYFRIEND ?
i also dont know , the only thing that im sure is , from him , I dont have what i want .
otherwise i wont be typing this yea ? :D
You've never been there when i need you .

some people might say , single is the best .
ohh , you might think so now . but deep down we all know thats not true .
there is this thing call loniness . therefore , nth is the best .
i know there are friendship . but friends , bros and sis will not hug you close to them and say 'baby , everything will be alright ,'

ofcoarse we all know that its not true , but at least for that specific moment . haha .

i always wonder why people tend to wish to get famous one day .
so what if you are famous ?
money ? so what happen you get whatever you want ?
after travel the whole world ? sleep in the coffin make of gold and notes one day ?
ask yourself , are you happy ? are you truely happy ?
Can someone please define what is happiness ?

Okays , end of telling story time ,
goodnite readers :D