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2008-04-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

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2008-03-03T16:02:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone (:

i just patched with him ytd (:

but doesnt mean i wont kill this blog .

haha , sorry my faithful readers .

2008-03-01T12:36:00.002+08:00

Im sorry everyone , this will be my last post .

i wont be deleting this blog , it will turns into my memories and smth to remind myself abt .

and i wont be creating any more blogs , please dun bother finding .

i deleted his blog , i realise i have been so selfish recently ,

i know he doesnt like to blog yet i sort of force him to .

im sorry }:

and we broke off , i didnt want it this way

all i know what to do is cry and cry .. i had been crying for 3hrs already ;

i didnt want anyone to know that im so weak ,

i didnt want to rmb all the things .. i really want to die ):

i am scared , cos from today onwards , im on myself again ;

i wont ask anyone for help anymore , i must learn to rely on myself .

i believe i could do it .

i miss him so much }: if he asked to give him another chance or patch wif him ,

i would had agreed immediately }:

but i know that he wont ; he is nt that type like zon and derrick }:

i felt so sad to lose someone , maybe This Is Fate

today is 1st March / 30th Feb .

there's no 30th this mth , thats why its fate . that we cant be tgt .

he told me before that he felt distance from me ,

i refused to believe it , i tot if i put in more time and effort in this r/s ,

we could have last longer .. i dunwan to face this cruel turth .

i didnt expect it is this fast too .. i tot at least until june .

nvm . i will overcome this .

im contented the happiness and love you gave me for the past 30days ;

thank you so much .

In school , ppl had been saying that i always change bf ..

i want a long lasting one too , but maybe it wasnt for ppl like me }:

i promise i wont std anymore for the time being , sorry all .

2008-02-29T12:43:00.004+08:00

in school english class (:
life is SO bored man .
and

dear is ignoring me D: xiao qi gui , dun care him :x
im sooooo nt contented =.= so im still lvl83 .. super slow man .
how am i going to get to 100 by next mth ? D: sob .

nbm . i WANTED to jump down the building and die D:
im serious T________T
it is soooooo boring , if i jump down and thats it ! wake up in hell uh ? (:
hope there's no hell and heaven too ~.~ , so after i jump down i wont go anywhr ..

but if thr is one , i will sure go hell .. zzz .
see those buddish movie is so scary , they gt their tougue cut out or smth ,
then those that commit suiside had to do smth else ..
it is super disgusting ............. eeyer , maybe shldnt jump ~.~

other method to die is , get poison :D:D yay .
it will be easier way =/
just simply eat up all the pills in my mother's drawer ,
ALL of them . thr gt around 700+ pills ? O.o
sure die ba .. so i will vomit white bubbles , and lock myself in the bathroom ^_^
hope nobody sent me to the hospital until i die ):

im so bored that i am thinking of ways to die >.<
oh well , really bored larrrs . provided that SOMEONE is ignoring me , and encoraging me die too ^_^
shld i go slp ltr ? :O

2008-02-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes , i really dislike some proud people .

i think its okay to be proud of yourself ,
sometimes it might be really retarded =/
but what matters is to be able to laugh at yourself and your mistakes.

Every single person want to be smart ,
and please others with their ''brilliant'' answers/concepts

We all fear failures ,
we worry that others would laugh at other failure
we are afraid of trying .

Perhaps , some people nid to get rid of this "I'm-too-good-for-the-world" attitude =/
and just learn their mistakes when others laugh at their retard-ness (:

P.s. i gt a new tagboard , and a new link , i haven even spread it yet .
some anti-me people already start tagging that they hate me ):
hmmm , your are really free uh ? I didnt know my life is soooo interesting >.<

thanks !

2008-02-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

You know why im posting ?
Cos , im nt mapling .

Why am i nt mapling ? Cos some fk up things happened ._.
and + some irratating freaks in msn .
really wan to just shut the computer , but zon is cheering me up .
oh well , awhile more ba ..

oh , he is advising me to quit maple -____-
no way man .. >.<
and he is the one who mega like siao last time -______-
i know i will regret wasting all these money on maple in the future la ,
but im just nt satisfied nw :D

anw . back to main topic .
i hate my fucking attitude . you see , i had no reason to be angry at anyone ,
and im just getting fucking mood-less becos of this ?
im one weird person =/
and the xiao qi gui , maybe i shld go bak to settle this after i type finish ..
if only i have mega ): , i would be having a mega war fight nw T_____________T
i wan mega ...................
feel like running down the 7-11 and just rob the cashier .__.

he mega that thing , which to add on to my fury =/
seriously nw , i dun mind using my 40mil to buy all the megas ...
nvm abt maple .

yea and how nice , i just shut zon off wif my attitude too -.....-
nw everyone hates me .
fantastic uh ?

You're My Estasy (:

2008-02-25T14:47:00.001+08:00

(: finally posting after so long . haha .
im sorry my beloved readers )=
im deeply addicted to MapleStory .
maybe i shld quit for some time ...................................

when im lvl 100 :D .

seriously , i really hate flirters & two-timers .
especially those that flirt which my good friends , i will grow really protective

and ..

hong them myself :D

i want them to know what is the taste of getting ditch by the one you love =/
oh well , im just trying to be nice ...

but my dear friends dun seem to get it ,
and they tot i want to steal their crush )= how heartbroken im ...

And the two-timers .
i really dun get what is so cool or enjoyable abt two-timing =/
wont you feel really guilty two-timing ?

Cos i tried once .. for 2 days , and it sucks D:
i grow impatient and brk wif the previous one immediately )=

when i was two-timing , im worried that my another dear would find out somehow ,
and i wont want the other one to have any physical contact wif me -.-ll

some people might go showing their friends textes and say ,
''ohhhhhhhh see , im so popular ! thrs 2 guys crazy abt me ~ '' <---lame .
to me , its just a waste of money & its so irratating man >.<

so why bother to two-timing right ? (:

and .
i miss my lovely dear ):
1 day without msging him , i feels like i am in hell D:
i gt no money to top up my phone again T______T it sucks man .

i cant imagine my days without him )=
hope that day will never ever come ..

2008-02-23T02:01:00.000+08:00

I remembered someone tell me a story before,
about a boy and the starfishes .

"A boy was walking by the seaside , he was the only one there . and all the starfishes in the sea were wash up to the shore by strong tides as starfishes cannot survive long without water, they are all going to die if no one is going to put them back into the sea . There are too many starfishes , the boy could not help all of them , so he only throw a few back into the sea . Because of this , it stops the starfishes from extinction ."

And the conclusion of the story is just by doing a small little move , it might have a huge impact on others .

But then ... this thought appear on my mind immediately .
After i saved others ,
who is going to save me ?

Yes , im a selfish person .
You might think so now , but again ,
is'nt it human instinct to be selfish ?

Everyone do smth for a purpose , or a benefit they want to gain .
we be friend with a A-star student is because we want to gain more knowledge from them , etc

Nothing last forever .
i know that friends , Lovers would all leave me one day .
In the end ,
I only have myself to relay on .

勾勾手，答應我，你永遠不會離開我

2008-02-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

did i post too much ? D:
no choice >< too boredddddddddddd .

im suppose to do my Amath test ....
but too lazy :D:D LOL . after posting pa (:
tmr must go see the Mrs Poh ): im abit scare ~.~
her eyes is scary man . rofl .
tmr musttttttt go T_________T
and A-math test . hope i can pass ): haissssssssss .

what else shld we tok abt ??
hmmmmmmmmm .

i know !!

my love for my baby ! ~.~
just to say im deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeply in love with him :D lols !

2008-02-19T12:17:00.001+08:00

EL english again ! rofl . it is so fun man .
cos WE CAN DO ANYTHING WE LIKE (:

haha . i change my post to 3 post per page . Cos i dislike some ppl kip reading my old post =.=
my life is nt interesting , infact it is super boring -.- dun boring reading yea .

anw im lvl80 !!!! check the ranking (; whaahahas .
thanks LOUIS :D:D:D and mic giving the the 2x exp .
so nice man. changing hairstyle soon .

ytd spam dear's megas . ps man =x left 2 only . LOLS !

then dear ytd gt beaten up D:D: 3 ppl aim my dear ><

so bad ! he gt beaten by some hard thing on the back , nw whole patch of blue black ):

sobb . get well soon (:

THIS IS DAMN CUTE MAN ! espically the first one and the last one =x

我愛你，不管明天還在不在

2008-02-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to post actually , dun feel like writing
ahahaha , lvl 78 .

Lolsx . i super lucky nw sai , ytd micheal (DJNoobie) agreed to help me chiong after after he lvl120. but nw no nid wait le . Cos Louis(xReddishhh) help me chiong lvl sai =x hoho .

hope i faster lvl100 man >.<
love my dear :D

2008-02-17T16:18:00.000+08:00

hello all (:
sorry i dun feel like blogging this few days .

basically, im just slping at home noramlly . except ytd (:
its really fun. i wake up at 9am , and went meet my wenwen (redxcode) & WindGraceX's gf (tinkle) . Wenwen is really pretty >.<

yea then we take cab down to Crossfire. Lols , so many ppl thr worhx ,
gt xXahhweeXx , NiuNiuDK , WindGraceX , DJNoobie , YiJiaRen92 , WenWenCrus , xXlaohowXx , randy , xXba0xx , th3cuteMe , xReddishHh , CleanpapeR . and many more . lols .

At first when we go thr is damn sian lars . Cos the whole lanshop is fullhouse ,
Everybody was zaking , then tinkle gt her bf to zak for her ,
so me and wenwen is damn sian lar .
only stay outside thr watch them smoke -.-

after , wind bring all of us to eat . Lols .
at first i dunwan eat , but nvm lar , gt wind treat =x
that ahhwee quite funny lar , say wenwen look like korean =x

then we tok tok then go bak CrossFire , then after gt computer to play liao .
thr damn gd , like bunk liddat , gt prelium exp . haha damn fast lars .
then the bao kip asking me maple nt sian meh . waa u more lucky can lv liao .
lols -.- then wenwen die 5 times . LOL . so funny =x

After the WarCannon msg me he went cf too .
then when i go find him then he go dc -.- assh0le =x
oh ! randy look damn cute lar . like smallboy liddat -_-
then ahhwee was like dun see he smallboy liddat , very zhai de worhx =x

But at night some idoit hack reddishhh acc -.- , all members except jr tio kik .
dia0z . nw recuiting bak . dj say kik whole guild even btr .
can kik all the unactive and low lvl one , last time fren here fren thr can0rt >< lols .

kk update again soon . lvl 77 x3 bye .

2008-02-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

Notice: My Phone Spoil ):

2008-02-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone (:

thanks all for tagging . Muacks .
today is boring man . My valentine day sux like hell can -.-
The stupid lit teacher eat our whole recess , wth . i super hungry lahs .
BUT , our presentation was like the best =x hahaha so proud !

The Chem test was difficult -.- i sure fail it lorx .
but no math test cos it was too late . The teacher like wan cry liddat . LOL !

today suppose to go out wif dum (dunno his rl name) to watch movie at ps .
But he nvr contact me , even btr . dunnid to go . lolsx .
sian bod0h .

Ohhhhhhh . derrick gave me the 50k ^_^ horhor .
but i had to scarifice tmr's nap to go out wif him ):
but nvm lar , 50k lehs !
he nw like everyday wan ask me patch .
hais , so fan de lor .

I realise my change of heart is so big =O
he used to be the most important person in my life .
To the point that im willing to die for him :O
even 5mths after we brk , i still crazy missing him ;
but nw , he is like nthing to me =
weird nee . i even hang all his cors . LOL .

thanks all the ppl hu gib me flowers today xD
so happy ~ although it is pathetic-LY 3 sticks only ...
but nvm , still rose =x (its dieing)

我忠心我爱的人♥ I Love Brandon Dear (:

2008-02-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

Updated @ 12.48AM (:
hahahas , know why i update ? Cos i lvled ofcoarse =x

Valentine's Day is just around the corner ! 2 more days ! (:
And , i smell the loninesss from it -_- LOL .

For me , im going to do the following things :
1) run home after sch .
2) Jump on my bed and have a nap
3) wake up on the computer and start maple :D

LOL . maybe maple is nt that boring after all <:
but the sad thing is , in aqulia , i cant find anyone that will hear my xinshi ):
except my lovely dear ofcoarse ~

Now i see like Alex erzi say , Cass gt more nice ppl lehx =O
last time in cass , i gt many many heartcore fren ! Lols !

Nvm abt maplestory ,
althought im nt having a lover for valentine this year ,
im going to spend it in maple wif my dear instead (:
hope it is fun too ~

(i rmbed the last year one was super boring wif ***** -.-)

My Valentine Wishes are :
1) Everyone to have a happy day xD
2) My maple to be lvl 100 by then . <--------LOL , dreaming
3) Dear to love mie more , & last long long long wif him (:

I loveeeeeeee my dear ~~~~~
he is must zhuzhu-ing nw xO
poor thing worhx , I Love You !

Even though i believe promises are meant to be broken ,
but really really wish can last wif you till next year valentine (:
I will try my best to kip this feeling . hope you do too .
Good Night !

2008-02-12T15:13:00.001+08:00

HI EVERYONE(:

PLS GIVE ME A TAG EACH
to kip my blog alive
thanks!
im too lazy to blog. wait till i lvled.

2008-02-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes ,when i stare at my own pictures .
i really feel like murdering the person inside ...

Like im looking at a pathetic person , feel so so useless .
other people always say a person sure have somethingthat he/she is gd at ,
but nw i think , i have no contribution this this world at all ...
You see , my studies is no gd at all , then im nt gd at partically everything ~
Even in computer games , im more lousy then other people -_-ll

Im nt a gd listener too , trying to cheer them yp
but end up making things worst ......
haix .. whr gt ppl until so shi bai like me -________-

Anyway , ytd went cynn hse collected $22 (:
it was quite fun (:
then after went down bugis buy my dress FINALLLLLLLLLLLLY ~
the pink colour no more .. zzzzzz . loser sai T_T
but i bought white , looks fine .
will be uploading pic tmr when i wear it (:

& i just realise i went out of pills -.-
means i might faint on the street again ... zzzzzzz
hope mummy faster buy for me ):

p.s. I LOVE DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR xD

我只好把我想说都放在心里，因为我只想要你开心

2008-02-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

my heart feel so pain so pain !
im so a bad and lousy gf ! ):

i dunno why i wrote such things ytd ,
you must be abit sad ):
then you forgive me so easy , you shld have scold me you know ~

im sorry abt at night that thing too ):
even thought you make it so clear that you only love me ..
i somehow get abit jealous -.-
soooooooooooooooooooooooorrrryyyyyyyyyyyy (:
i love you (:

break my heart; like what break yours .

2008-02-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

Hello Readers again (:

i feel like posting this ,

hmmm . i had always think that online steads are Lame

i mean , okay lar . Why do you need a online boyfriend/girlfriend ?

so you say you are trying to make the game more intereting ?

Which actually wasted your time accompanying them instead of training (:

do you fall in love with a 2D grapfic ?

actually you fall in love with the person playing the char (:

but whats the pt of doing this when you never going to meet him/her ?

although i always tell people this ...

but at the end of the day , i just reliese im doing the same ._.

how retarted .

2008-02-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New year Readers !
thanks for reading my blog even for chionging hongpao time !
haaha (:

and poor me have no hongpao at all ! ><
my mother haven even give me yet ...
let me see .. this year $5 dollars ??? better then nth ba (:
ahhhhhhhhh . so bored so bored ! i really wish cynn would come today (:

ytd was FUN . shldnt have go to sch , slp all the way ~.~
then , after folo sandy to her sister sch for smth matters to settle xO .
after we take bus to my hse , then went lunch wif mummy :D
seafood is good ~~~~~ im getting fatter by the days ):
(just like the fortune ticket says -.- )

After , went to sandy hse again for reunion dinner =x
oh , the day before at msn was funny :D
i was talking to zon , then he say he free during afternoon ,
then i say cannot i only free during nightime , cos he have reunion dinner wif relatives .
then i say dun go laas , i eat reunion dinner wif you . LOL .

so , at her hse after streamboat . then her sis work in the salon last time :D
then she was washing our hair like pro wif message can ! so shiok ~
i said i would go her hse for hair wash everyday . haha .
after we were comparing boobs can -.- LOL .
sandy naughty sai , duno what she did at joshua hse eaerlier on =x
gt one mark thr . LOLLLLLLLLLLLL . liar tell us she kiss nia !

then then at night we went chinatown watch firework(: just in time !
after that go walkwalk , buy sumthings .
oh no , better go bugis and buy my dress faster , ltr my money all use up -.-
went home at 3 liddat , then play maple for another hrs (:
can lvl by toay ba ~

&lastly , I LOVE BRANDON DEAR(:
(shy mahs ? xD )

2008-02-05T12:28:00.000+08:00

hi readers (:

I did not update much recently , due to heavily maple chionging =x

im lvl 70 priest with HOG & helm (:

and please dont abandon my blog.

Erm , school is horrible ~

i gt an egg for A-Math ._. but then i gt quite good for E-Math (:

thats great >< now waiting for sandy .. half an hour le . suppose go bugis one wif weili oso . I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI I HATE WEILI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she promise people things nvr do ): assh0le one .
im really abit angry ):
AND I DECIDED , after i write finish this , im going home (:

ytd went out wif derrick and guanhua .
derrick at mrt keep hugging me say i miss you ._.
i keep pushing him off , but then the last time i nvr push -.-
*feel so asheme of myself* T_T

2008-02-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

updated (:

today gt my helm . im so happy at that moment !
you can ask sarah :D
hahahahaa . i was smiling like crazy xD
the stat nt bad , 14 15 16 17 .
thanks RANDY (:

next , i have something to clarify .
the sandy stuff , i dont care anymore .
i heard some ppl had been disliking me for being too ''open'' ,
cos i shouted it in my post .
Lols , so ? Cos i dont give a damn (:
have fun cursing me .

tot abt it .
Maybe i shld be frens bak wif sandy , just be normal frens lor .
no harm also (: haha .

spent another day crying . My eye swollen .
i am so weak .
i wanted to change , but then why is people also think of me still like tat ):
is it because of the past then cannot change anymore ?
it doesnt abt how any other person think of me ,
but someone which you think impt to me is also thinking the same .
it feel like shyt .

2008-01-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hello all my faithful readers ,
i know you are excited to see my blog :D

okay . today someone spoil my mood ): im suppose to be happy cos im getting my zak helm today !
congrats me ? hahas .

anw , sandy read my blog finally , in fact i have always wanted her to read it .
and she felt ''guilty'' and say sorry for forgivness .
i told her i would think for a day , but now readers , my answer is

I would not forgive her .

im nt a mean person , i dont just angry at people for no reasons , and im nt even angry at her at all .
i just cant see any ''guilty-ness'' in her apologise .
although you did cried during chinese lesson and manage to get weili's pity (nice one)
but when i see you cry , i dont feel a thing , happy maybe . lols .

to me , you just cried because either
1) you scare you had no more frens to go recess with
or
2) you are sad that so many people fame you and your blog .

The reason i was nice still 2days ago was because of something .
nt convience to say here , and im nt going to tell you too .
i was planning to play cold war with you on monday , but now there's nt a nid .
yijing and weili went Mac with you because you are treating them .
money can buy friendship .
you shld know by now what yijing is like right ?

And there's nt a need to break up with jiahua becos of me .
Somemore , if you brk wif jiahua you would just gib me more troubles .
He would come calling me and i would be speechless as usual then
im back to square One .

but if you still want to be my friend as in that kind of friend~ , i dont mind .
if you use tears as your way though problems and buy other ppl's pity ,
then so can i (;
want to play ? bring it on (;

p.s. dont stick to weili like a dog please ~.~

2008-01-29T12:14:00.000+08:00

Just finished my english compo (:
Like the teacher says , the more you write the more garbage you generate .
So , why bother to write so much ?

after reading this , sweet readers like you will know what im feeling now i guess (:
im FUCKING angry now , plus a little bit of sadness .....

Eager to know what happened ? Dont be anxious , i will tell you one step by one step .

AshleyLau came to school with a light heart in the morning ,
but because of her sweet bestfriend's request , she was book again for late for school ,
so she is going detention soooooooon .
yes , how wonderful (:
And then , there are 2 tests in a row . and she gt 0 marks for one . haaas .

Sorry abt boring storys , NOW lets skip to the most exciting part !
she received a letter from her sweet friend weili , it was like this .
during chinese , ashley's best friend sandy wrote a long and lovely letter to weili .
And after weili show it to ashley (:

Interested abt the content of the letter ?
i WILL read it to you readers , one word by one word .

''........................ Chinese is SO BORED ?!?! USING UR PEN NOW !! write big big ! haha ... I got new Bf !!! lol !!! Name called JoJo . Quite cute . I met him ytd . So ironic ... he and I wearing black skinnies lol ... wahaha ... When You gonna find your JJ lin ?? HAHA !! But I love my Jia hua ... JoJo onli try try de .
I CANNOT BELIEVE ASHLEY DID IT WITH MY BOYFRIEND !!!
urgh nvm . I forgive her . Mostly because i am very nice , loving , compassionate . Rartly coz she's mah best friend ( and euu too DarDar !!) See my heart so gd . (: fuck my Bf I forgive ... lol !!! Ash Damn farni la !! ehh...
euu muz rite for miie too kayz ?! ^_^ tk!muackx!
sandy bleahxx ... ''

OMG . i tell you . my heart and brian is burning with FIRE ?
I FORGIVE HER ????? OMG . I REALLY WANT VOMIT BLOOD LE .
HE WAS MY EX-BOYFRIEND . WE FUCKED WHEN WE STILL STEAD .
I DID NOT do ANYTHING wrong AT ALL .

i think as a friend , i do one to the very end .
the fact that you ''snatch'' my boyfriend indirectly is almost unforgivable .
and YET , i forgave you .

if you are my bestfren , why didnt you think abt my feelings at ALL ?
i dont mind losing him to anyone else out there , but to a friend that i trust for so many years ?
i really cannot take that .

I see now , if you are too nice to others , they will just eat you up .

2008-01-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmmmm .
the post for today is : why girls/boys need to find boyfriend/girlfriend ?
extract from yumiko dardar 's blog !
<3 yumiko dardar ~ you really did put some sense into my brian ._.

i admit that it is happy when you are with a boyfriend/girlfriend .
but think abt it deeply again , at this age of ours .
out of 100 relationships , i think there is only 1 that last .
then why do people want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend then ?
when brk that time , wont you feel even more lonely and hurtful then before ?
im nt saying we shldnt have a boyfriend/girlfrend ,
but think twice about the consiquences before you have one .

-although i dont visit people's blog much , (becos im busy mapling) but i think , its a blessing to have someone writing abt you secretly . its so sweet when you read it >.<

ANYWAY , today . im sickkkkkkkkkk .
i ALMOST fainted in school again -.-
now i suspect i had some sickness or wad . not like im having menses or stomachache .
how can i just want to faint like that ?????
its so scary T_T my whole head is like no blood pump up at all , my lips is like wad ,
icy cold ? And i cannot even see a single thing -.-

& thanks dear for your starhub top-up <3
love ueeeeeeeeee . muacks . haaaas .

我相信明天會更好

2008-01-27T12:55:00.000+08:00

okay . i dont know what to say .
have been feeling moody for the past few days ):

since when had friendship become so magnificient ?
im not sure , things that is happening around me make me lost faith in friendship .
i am always aware that the world is full of lies and cruelty .
to find a really trustable person , is like finding a diamond in the sea ._.

but yet , i had believed that there are true friendship .
but this few days , i see my mistake .
backstab and betrayal is what i see only .

now i realised its okay to lost my loves , no matter who .
as long as i find a better one it will be fine :D

愛你是我唯一生存的理由

2008-01-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

im lvl 63 . stuck , because marmie come back singapore le . lols .
sian bod0h .

school is really starting to get terrible >:(
i just want a peaceful live ._. but unfortunely , things doesnt go the way you want to ):
yesh , today is a ''GREAT'' day .

EARLY in the morning , ms Tan called me out for a little talk (:
its about me and my ''illness'' because i didnt go to school for 3 days last week .
Lols , i just told her that my menses cramps are really really bad ,
which is true .
because my cramps are really bad .
and ofcoarse she didnt supect that one .
but she told me im Not cropping well , for Chem & A-Math .

Oh well , i know im nt cropping well , because i didnt do her homeworks -.-
and i add-ons my plan for A-maths .
she said i cannot drop until the end of the year ): signs . nid to suffer another pretty year .

my morning call is LATE again .
SO , im late for the bus , and i didnt wear my PE attire !
GREAT ! no choice , write another letter abt menses cramp -.-
and have another little talk with Mrs Chen . WOW ?
she say , so are u quitting swimming or not .
Oh my god , i look like a stupid girl just nodding my head for okays .

her ''deal'' is RIDICULOUS !
she say if i dont improve for my next test , and i cannot quit swimming .........
im pointing middle finger to her (inside my brian)
outside i nod my head though .......
And chionging homework again , and then found out i lost my ss workbook , dead tmr .

My School life is SO not peacful ._. ha-ha .

And sandy have start to msg zon & jiahua .
Oh well , i didnt say anything abt her achieve-ness .
but seriously DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP inside im not that satisfied . Somehow .
Jiahua think we have silent break-ed .
i did not like this , so im going talk to him in msn tonight .
i will give him the choice to break up , & i decided to try help sandy , so maybe jiahua will stead wif her instead .
By using Zon's method . Just like how he push me to jiantat .

My Ex-Boyfriend & My Best-Friend . Perfect Match ??????????

Not sure . i want to use Zon's method and see what jiahua will do .
Will they really stead tgt ? O.o

All of you might ask me why am i doing this ,
i can always snatch back jiahua , there's still time . i know i have the potential and skills =x
but , what for .
We tried to be together 2 times , i tried my best , and yet .
we cannot even last more thn 10days ?
if this is so , i rather give up , maybe its better this way .

For Zon , seriously , saying im over him already is a lie .
everytime i realised he have a new love , i will smile at myself . For he had find someone better .
i think if sandy and zon stead , i will stay at home and cry ._.
but i would send them my regards ofcoarse .

stupid me .
and they are going out on sat , hope they have fun (:

2008-01-20T03:17:00.000+08:00

rofl . im lv 59 . hahahaha .
so sian rights .? tmr im going to wake up at 8am to find map .
(: gt a new maple dear . hoho .
he is nice , he gib me many stuffs and cash too (:

yup . then i was thinking abt zon again when i heard a song .
and then , he went online .
he tok wif me , he wish that i could have a good dear soon too .
he say he wish his r/s to be 1year + . i ask him to jiayou and wish him luck .
then he change his pm to smth abt his dear too .

then i know , i had choose the right choice .
people need to move on . we cannot hang on a person forever .
yea ?

愛は幸福についてある

2008-01-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

erm , i haven been posting for awhile .
anw my blog is dead .

partically , no one is tagging at all .
so means , not alot of ppl is reading this , thats why they dun tag ?
or
just dunwan to tag . grr . whatever .

today went out wif sandy at first to meet her bf , then after that i go mee xBaByFrOst and his fren . walous , i know another rich guy . LOL . he pay all the taxi fares , movie ticket , and he treat us to thai restautant .
hahaahs .

went home mquite early , im lv58 nw . aiyaa . you know , i ytd sell my bwg for 3mil
LOL . it is suppose to be 33mil . =x

wahahas . im so pro . nw i wan spend all my money on gacha sai !
xD .

2008-01-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

dont cry because it's over ,
smile because it happened ;

ytd 10++ jiahua come my hse ton :D
lols . we watch initial D , play maple . etc .
zzz , but then at 4am liddat he say wan go home ._. then toke nightrider home .
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz . sian . im super tired lehs !

the next day need to wake up at 9am and meet aaron pig at ps . zz
and then when im on the mrt , he still haven bath -.-
so he ask me go seragoon find him first . sian lorhs .
i bought his cigg but then no lighter ........ LOL

then we went cityhall irc lanshop thr meet his frens for zakum quest .
stupid lahs , they play delp then only 5 ppl pt , lols , dmg nub ,
then after act dc dun play liao . LOL .
then after go take bus down ps wif his frens . aiya , i pon tution lehs .
at first dunwan de ... then his fren eat super slow zzzzzzz
then must watch the 3.25pm show . no time go le .

btw the fat guy SUPER rich lo .
he treat 7 of us to lan , 7 of us for kfc , 7 of us for movie ticket !!!! =x
aaron was like , next wk i also go out wif him le . LOL

for you .
all the things that you are telling me is just LIE LIE LIE !
wtf . why cant you just leave me alone or smth .
you dont know how hurt i am ,
i just want to forget all the moments we had .
im getting really tired .

無論多深厚的愛情，始總會變舊

2008-01-11T19:31:00.000+08:00

today i pon school . lols .
si jiahua , say 12+ come find me . asshole say nid go down yio chu kang cannot so early come .
fker , shld have go to sch . Lols =x

after that sandy come my hse give me homework (:
so chiong maple the whole morning . sian lorhs , 90% die . zzzz
then after derrick cor me to go j8 go out wif his fren .
then i cancel the meeting wif yinqing , dun feel like going watch movie ba .
after i let derrick drive zon's car in mt3 . lols .
i found out zon is really famous -.- after derrick use my card , all his frens come ask him .
whr you get zon's card ? lols , they all know zon de sai =x
stupid derrick wan clone zon card -.- i was like using all my strenght to snatch back .
if tio clone ah , i dunno wad happen le . zzz

after that his frens want to go ps .
earlier zon ask me go ps find him also , so i cor zon lahs .
then go up find him , give him back his card .
hais . maybe he was nice to me because he want back his card .
after i told him just nw i use your card at j8 .
then he tell me he know already lehs !!!!
LOL . cause his fren just nw was at j8 also , then tell him . -.- liddat also can !!

then after i leave wif derrick to go home .
so sian , also nth to do . otherwise watch zon play 3 hrs meh -.-
hais .
aaron msg me . say tmr his zak quest cancel , dunwan go le .
zzz i askhim u dunwan watch movie mehs . then he say , wan but only we two go like guai guai .
LOLs . hais , nvm dun go then dun go . i dun care le lahs .

just nw i read the email that andrew send me .
then i cried .
he said i could change , and forget all the things in the past .
he said dun regret things until its too late , nw still can change .
can mahs , can a person really forget all the things that happened ?
do you say forget then forget ?
i dont know , but i will try ba (:

我只想用我这一辈子去爱你

2008-01-09T18:50:00.001+08:00

nw to think back , i found that in the past we are really childish .
in a way that we never think before we do .
abt the consequences , the future .
everything we do , there is a consequences .
as young , when we do wrong things , teachers , parents forgive us .
but sometimes what is gone is gone , no turning back .

i wish that time could go back , so that i could correct all the mistakes that i did in the past .
i found myself changing alot during the recent years .
parents always say that they scare their kid turn ''bad'' ,
but what is the defination for ''good'' and ''bad'' ?
i dont blame them for thinking that way , in their eye , it might be ''bad''
but when you see it in another positive , it might become ''good'' somehow .

i always think that those ahbeng & ahlians is nt the ''bad'' kids .
in fact , i found that they are much more muture than those protected kids outside .
you might think im talking rubbish here , i dont blame you as well .
every single person had their own set of thinkings (:

2008-01-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

eh so bored . my mother take my connection again .
zzz . so i end up using wireless@ sg .. always dc sai .

and xiaoprince cor me at 8+ go down give back thumbdrive .
at least there are smth to do . -.-
but i wore zon's shirt down !!!! GRRRRRRR .
regrets nw . T.T sobbs .
the smell is already fading , and after i wore it , it fade even more . -.-
i want another shirt T.T T.T sadd .

rawr .

2008-01-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK .
am i too easy to get cheated ?
yes tio play AGAIN . wonderful uh ?

_l_ lj . that stupid asshole after 1 day wan break wif me le .
say what dun like me le . fuck .
nvm abt him , nt like like him that much .

THEN , zon's ''BRO'' duno him or wad come kpkb to me for ?
FUCK LAHS . act nice . act nice for WHAT . very fun uh ?
wan play issit ? dun gib back ur card wan ?
i burn it ah . nub .

i flirt , YEA i flirt , SO ? cannot issit . bth then fuck off can ?
u rmb . is YOU SAY gib up me de . dun regret things and come scold me
you very sad or wad . lame sai .
like u will cry for me . think i stupid issit ?
k lahs . even i stupid so ? u play me liddat very fun issit ?
fuck . i super piss can . so more that STUPID kia play ks .

sry say so many fuck . i am really really REALLY piss .

2008-01-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

i want to be thr for you ,
like no one else before ;

& i finally know the ''real'' reason of his ,
he said because his bestfriend like me , so he give up .

wtf ? im nt sure if this is really the rl reason .
but if it is , then i think its pathetic .

your bestfriend like me .
SO ?

do i like him ? no .
do i want to be with him ? no .

i dont think love is abt giving your precious ones to someone .
which she dont even wish to .
if i really is to love a person , i will never give him to someone else , no matter who she is .

& i have stead with johann :D
cos menghwee say he have someone on his mind , then i ask johann hu ,
then he said was me . LOLS .
o6o1o8 ; 01:11hrs x3

haahs , btw went ps with dar and JOEY AIAI !!
our one month anni ~~~~~~~~~ T.T
we watched im the legend . its quite boring ;x

p.s. WEILI YOU SHLD HAVE CAME ):

2008-01-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

if you kiss me now ,

i know you'd fool me again ;

Meeting you was fate ,

becoming your friend is a chioce of falling in love ,

with you was beyond my control .

i know love is not everything , but i still cannot control the hard feelings inside .
although everyone tell me to 'forget' him and dont think too much .

but is forgeting someone this easy ? Is it possible to really forget someone ?
i dont know . Maybe others can , but im clear that i cant do it .
Someone you love so dearly 1hr ago and had just become such a stranger .
do people change just like that .?

or

is it everything a lie .?

But ,
it doesnt matter anymore .
because , you did make me happy .
even everything is just a lie . its okay .
even if it is just a little little while , im contented .

2008-01-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

all those facts ,

i dont wish to know .

im back to square 1 . -.- GREATS .
today is NOT good . i see elan soh ! and THEN wah god really helping me lehs , the stupid teacher actually cannot come today , LOL .

at first i was so happy ... cos going his hse play play today (:
then we went the 2 people sauna ~ 45 mins nia . so short liddat !
then went ps eat dinner . fcuk the uniform . the skirt super long . sian .
and cannot go inside the arcade . he standard one lahs , go inside mt3 -.-
make me wait outside ..... zzzzzzzz . i took his name tag and mt3 card btw .

then so he ply play i say go home first , ltr mother scold ah .
that time he still ok de . like say message me ah and i go home call u all this , and ask me go out next time all this .
on the mrt also , but dunno why after i reach home . he totally change into a different person ):
so sad . then he ask one girl cor me , say she is zon's stead .
hais . now then i find out he had been timing me for 4 whole mths ._.
although i do suspect before , but like i say , all those facts , i dont wish to know .

anw i cha wif the girl , fcuk that zon always lie . anw we tok tok then comfort eachother ,
then we become frens then she break wif him too ;x
maybe it was part of his plan , but i doesnt matter uh ?
although i still think there is a reason that zon break wif me . (he said there are one too)
he say i will know soon .. hais .

anw we became good friends ! orh i took one shirt from his house . it smell damn nice !
i had been hugging it everywhr and sniffing it ;x
surprise im nt too sad this time , just have headaches .
btw i eaten alot of pills , so god plsplsplspls dun let me ******** ah T.T
(i gt a feeling i wont) :D

AND nw his bestfriend want jio me .. wtf . then zon say give him 1 chance lahs .
walou eh , haven std yet ask for sex le . wtf -.- nt acceptable . and i do look for shuaiges ;x
LOLS . hmmm . btw the chem teacher say my eye is nice :D so happy !

2007-12-30T12:49:00.000+08:00

i never regret,
what happened between us ;

yesterday went wildwildwet with menghwee , pk , joreen , vivien and johann :D
at first , meet johann first go ttogether mahs . siao one .
say meet at 12pm at pasir ris . he 11.10am go inside the lan shop in clementi -_-
i see him sit at thr ofcoarse i bth go open another computer lahs ._.
chiong my maple :D going lv50 le !!!!! 82% . walou eh . ytd die when im 87%
no mood le lahs !
hmph . kk then we play until vivien keep calling then go .
wait for the mrt damn long . stupid johann lahs , the day before still say until so nice what christmas present . dhen in the end forget to bring =.= LOL .

anw , until wild wild wet le . very fun !!!! but stupid lahs , we cannot find the float place
all the thing all swim . i too long nvr swim le . cannot move . somemore i wear long sleeve and pants . LOL scare sun ah , but ytd was not too sunny . gd !
but at the purple slide , stupid sai , the life guard make me take off shirt ! cos slide cannot wear .
not fair ! i so fat can TT inside wearing bikini , all see i so fat le lahs !
then in the slide stupid leh , my pants cannot slide ! then i kust keep pushing , nt fun at all one =.= sian .

after like alm0st 5 le , i super hungry lahs ! somemore play until very tired le . so go eat .
woots ! mit amelia thr ! lols . i go then she come . stupid =.-
the chicken is super expensive =.= 3 chicken $7.20 lehs , siao .
then wan go back to white sand thr , stupid johan forget his present =.=
then after rainning ! then we go take bus lo .
after play arcade for 2hrs ? spend alot of money lehs ! 10 dollar ?

after that , johan and me go back clementi went lan abt 8.30++ until 10.15++ ,
after we go macdonald eat dinner . then go home le .
aiyous ! today i go out with 50dollar then nw left 4 dollar only lehs .. zzzzz

2007-12-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

you are gone ,
im lost ;

today so happy <333333333
went to alot places with kors and friends :D :D :D
go vivo wait for vivien at first , then take many pic
after went cine , then separated , went with junhao or duno what is his name , my dog :D
to play lan , the lan super ex there , 1hr 3.70 lehs , siao !)(&$_@( . hahahas .
then walk walk buy many present and also gotten many :D so happy !
then jasmine and shuying came !!! so long nvr see them eh ! miss miss :D:D
hahahs , merry christmas !

i tot im going to have another boring year , but it turn out to be damn fun <3
we play until super crazy lo , cant wait for new year !!!!!!!!

and heres are some of the pics , cannot put all ah ;x so many !

2007-12-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

if you dare , i will try

to love you forever ;

so boring ! duno wan holiday or not , haais .
anw , i tot he was going to japan today . but it became tmr somehow .
SO , i went to msg him bright in the morning saying my apologises ,
didnt ask for forgiviness , i just wish he have a happy week [:
but i end having one thanks for the pain reply . TT

actually i also dunno it is good or not , at least this time ,
is he angry with me , not i angry with him . so we wont patch anymore right ?
he is a good guy , i dont want him stay with me ;x hurhur .
23rd is NOT loved , our 3rd anniversary . ):

anw went orchad today , and bought another ring again .
because , i lost the other one again .
went home damn early , listen song all the way ba :D

next , i personally think those who put password in their blog is lame . (:
BECAUSE , what for create a blog when you put a password thr ?
what is so secret that i cant know ? lols .

wish i could have more luck for the future days (x
im really fuck up nowadays , hais .
BUT my laptop maple is back ! :D:D:D laggy gone ~ woots .

2007-12-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

easier say then done ,
i know i've wrong ;

today is a bad day ? lols .
went xincheng house to get thumbdrive then went meet sandy .
then we go ps meet jonathan le .

it was quite boring actually , nothing to do .
the only thing i regreted was there is a 5 hrs 2x exp and im outside b, wtf . ):
and then we become all wet in the big rain . lols .
sandy gtg expo at 4pm but she came back at 6pm cos too many people .

so the bad thing was , i saw zon .
i was so surprise when i see him , i dunno what the fuck im doing , instead of going there to say hi , i ran away instead , and this was my mistake .
i promised him i would not go out with my fren and go out wif him today -.-
so , he of coarse saw me , and said im a liar and a bitch .
i didnt want to be a liar ... im not , really .
but im didnt blame him as well , anybody who saw the scene will think that way anyway .

actually im abit disappointed as well , cos i know . even if we didnt meet , he would not go out with me as well . he is going tto japan tmr already , i realli dunno what to do ):
msg him ? or just leave it ......
so troublesome -.-
sometimes , i really wish he could just understand me a little bit more TT

2007-12-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

i have change ,

so have you ;

you say i have change . you want to know why ?
i changed is because my feeling for you have changed .

you say you dont like my hair right , if it is last time de me ,
i would go to the salon immediately and reborn my hair .
but now , the only thing i though of was now you like me or my hair ? dont like then dont like lo .

see , thats all i think abt . no more difficult thoughts occur (:

i know you love me more than last time already ,
but sometimes , what is gone is gone .

and now i think those people who slash their waist is stupid .
although im like that too last time . ;x
i saw this person in msn , she slash her waist and then write there ,
'' my hand is very pain ''

wtf .. very cool uh ? lols .
lame sai .

2007-12-20T15:41:00.000+08:00

i can never hold you back ,
i know ;

HELLO ALL , im back in singapore <3 feel free to msg me ! hahahas ,
im so bored at home neh , my laptop have no maple . NO MAPLE . )@(%&@_^@(
but big computer have , always lag like mad . stupid stupid stupid .
hais , that xincheng pig say put inside thumbdrive come clementi give me .
inside thumbdrive nth de !!! asshole TT

wont be posting often now <3 busy mapling . wahahahs ;x

2007-12-16T17:33:00.000+08:00

how am i going to stay strong ,
without you by my side ;

i am moody for the whole TWO days , ): sad .
so rare to see me moody ;x hais . duno what im thinking anyway .
btw i got a happy news ! :D

i sold my w580i for hk$300 . lols , better then nth . going to throw away anw :D
and i trade in my w850i for hk$1000 , pity the workers , my phone gt problem one , so they had to pay back the $1000 , wahahahs .
and then i bought myself a w910i for hk$2980 . im going to suffer from poorness really badly this mth ):
lucky grandma gave me $400 :D and i borrowed $1000 from daddy . sign*
please god , dun let my this phone inside the toilet bowl again TT rawrr !

know a new person ytd , duno what is his name . keep saying himself emo -.-ll
lols . so weird . and im back tmr ! :D :D :D
cant wait ~ all sms me welcome msg ;x hurhur .

2007-12-14T14:48:00.000+08:00

loving you ,
is the biggest mistake i've made .

i finally break wif him le ..
i cant believe i can say that , my hands are shaking all the way .
and i blocked him already :D to stop myself from xinruan . alvin tell me to delete him oh O.o
but i still believe we can be gd frens :D
my feelings now are , between happiness and emptiness . Dunno how to say .
i felt more relax after the break , but in the other hand , there are something else besides that .
he said he nw dun like that girl le , it wont happen again , to give him chance .
i hesitated , but i know the result going to be same .
i realised what is my place in his heart ,
in the end i choose to break wif him . i gave him 2 chances , maybe we arent meant to be together [: i really believe that he can find a better one .

thanks fren for comforting and advising me , i ok liao , thankyou all <3
sorry boy , no more chance given . paid for the things you did .

4 more days [:

2007-12-13T19:39:00.000+08:00

The feeling of dominance;
so much alike to ecstasy

today go shopping with daddy . bought many things again ;x
started to buy present too . hhaha . aiya , wanted to get a nose piercing today .
but then surprise that daddy say ugly dun let me pierce == , say if want pierce next month allowance -1000 . go die lahs , sua i go bak singapore then pierce :D

btw he unblock me le . lols , he care bahs ? hahas .
but i start to lose feeling le , too bad o ;x
sian sian sian ~

edited by joey aiai <3 love you !!!!

2007-12-13T02:05:00.000+08:00

love is a big illusion ,
i should try to forget ;

today is 121207 .
i nice day , lols . bought many many things :D
went friend house , so bored ._. watch tv till 11++ then go home bahs .
felt much better already (:
thanks everyone for cheering me up , i am going fine in progress :D

@11.58pm , on the van , im thinking weather i should call him for stead , but in the end didnt xO
but i qt a feeling this is the right choice . hahahas , weird uh ?
dont know what im waiting for too , but definitely not what you are thinking . dun worry ;x
nvm lahs , find another nice date soon :D

btw im going to get a nose piercing the day after tmr :D woots !

2007-12-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

always and forever ,
i see a gay between us ;

i see that im blogging alot lately :D
ahahas , nothing to do mahhs . you dont need to read it you know :x

anw , today went uncle's house :D
my uncle is only 22years old ;x hurhur .
hmmm , in my mind , i first time see him . but last time every year new year also see de ba ?
he is QUITE good looking , a LITTLE bit too short .
his back thr right below the neck there qot one around one hand big tattoo .
damn cool lehs , nt too big also nt too small .
better then those paikia put the whole tattoo infront . wahahahs .

wonder how i saw it ? when he first wake up and come out from the room half naked i saw lo .
wahahahas . cause he need to go work soon , but nt yet . so pei wo psp for while .
by his way of dressing , can see he is nt the 'study' kind . ;x

anw , the whole group of aunt , including my mother is tolding about things .
and my mother loves to talk abt my bad things .
here's a topic , parents always love to make things bigger .
she say i go sing k SECRETLY , and so he ask me you gt or nt ?
then i told him , nah . i go sing k with her knowing lo ... anyhow say me TT
lols .

&& i fall in love with 炸醬麵 ! :D

add-ons @ 8.35pm :
im moody . its so sad to know that someone you love so much is cheating behind your back .
you once tell me you are hurt because your ex put some other boy name on the msn thr ,
and you're sad . then why are you doing the same ?
hais . nvm lahs , i understand de (:

i know im right , cos i didnt pin too much hope on you (:
i will take it that you've break up wif me , no explanation needed .
last long long with her alrights ?
i wont give up giving up , i promise ;
i really hope that she can give you the love that i cant .
takecares <3

2007-12-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

nobody appreciate anything ,
so dont try to change yourself for someone ;

ahhhhh , im so bored .
nobody wants to accompany me >< . which make me think to the 'wrong' things again ;x its just a random post (: dont read it , its long

thinking of the past , my happy family ! :D
daddy , mummy and me .
together to ocean park , living in the house , eating dinner together ; etc .
the real smile and laughter which i can never own again .
everything changed , in the year of 2001 .
did i made a very wrong choice ?
i just want to be a normal person .

here is a question , what is a normal person ?
a normal person cry when they are born .
a normal person have a complete family .
a normal person study in their own country .
a normal person work to earn money to support their family .
a normal person wants to be loved .
blah blah blah ..

im suppose to be a normal person too .
and , in the year of 2001 . this choice of mine father change something .
because of my amazing IQ (cough) , i qt this scholarship . Lols .
only mummy and i come to this deserted country without a single friend or relative .
oh ? human do survive when they are force to (:
ofcoarse , with cash .

This cause a little family breakdown .
small little me had lost fatherly love TT
looking outside the window at dinner and cry was my favourite thing to do everyday then .
After he come out , daddy changed alot .
And yes , people do change due to sudden solution .
p.s. im nt saying he treat me in a nt good :X
i once overheard , he say to my mother that 'if you dont give me , i dont give you this month's money .'
issit it pathetic ? haha .
everyone is pathetic , yes i am pathetic too .
people tend to stuff themselves with something that is nt true . To escape from the cruel truth .

愛? this world have mahs ?
you may ask me , then why do you have a BOYFRIEND ?
i also dont know , the only thing that im sure is , from him , I dont have what i want .
otherwise i wont be typing this yea ? :D
You've never been there when i need you .

some people might say , single is the best .
ohh , you might think so now . but deep down we all know thats not true .
there is this thing call loniness . therefore , nth is the best .
i know there are friendship . but friends , bros and sis will not hug you close to them and say 'baby , everything will be alright ,'

ofcoarse we all know that its not true , but at least for that specific moment . haha .

i always wonder why people tend to wish to get famous one day .
so what if you are famous ?
money ? so what happen you get whatever you want ?
after travel the whole world ? sleep in the coffin make of gold and notes one day ?
ask yourself , are you happy ? are you truely happy ?
Can someone please define what is happiness ?

Okays , end of telling story time ,
goodnite readers :D

2007-12-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

my worst nightmare ,
is knowing you ;

i just realised trying to be a nice person is so hard .
when im trying to be NICE , i'll just end up calling a 'bitch' .

Yes , bitch is all i am . thankyou .
Anything happen to your dont even bother to tell me , cause im going to be a busybody and spill out everywhere .
find that person come beat me again if you want . i promise i wont find support or need anyone to 'help' me , rather just die thr then watch your faces .

just take it that i 'beg' you ,
im already depress over many things recently .
me here APOLOGISE that if i had cause unknowing troubles ,
i wont bother you anymore , so stop bothering me too .

2007-12-09T13:55:00.000+08:00

embrace me one last time ;
im waiting for you .

thanks for everyone that support me :D
i've make up my mind . thanks to yumiko dardar's advise !
she told me , love a person doesnt nid to own them .
so i decided that i would talk to him , like really really talk to him .
and this time , i wont get infected by his sweet words (:
if there's really a need , i would break wif him .

actions speak louder then words , so i'll show your whats the result :D
wish me luck , bye♥

2007-12-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

in me ,
there's this irrestable for you ;

im confused .
i dont know what to do .
asked many many advise from kor and aiai ,
but still wont work !!
i still love him . thats the turth TT
then ytd ke siao say swt swt thing make me xin dong again ..
shld i just leave it hanging ?

hais . lets dun tok abt these lah (:
ytd i give the phone to daddy for repairance . he is nt as angry as i expect :D
hahaas , then the fishing is horrible ! go thr nt even half an hour go le .
no patient mahs ;x hurhur .

i love aiai ♥ thanks fer your post for comforting mie xD hahaas .
8 more days (:

2007-12-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

i know my love is somewhr ,
appear soon im expecting you ;

im going fishing tmr ! so excited (;
wahahs , but ! im so scare too , tmr going to see daddy
how am i going to tell him my phone which just bought for 2 wks drop inside the toilet bowl AGAIN ? omgomgomg TT sobbs .

i am having nightmares abt the phone & someone ._.
i really really miss him .
hais . im so bored , there's nth to play .

But im happy :D
cos i qt a job ! woots , but can only start in june (;
thanks to joel ~ (:
and he's getting me a free marbolo methol ._.
anyone want to buy texas ? Can get for a much cheaper price :D

11days more (:

2007-11-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

learn to let qo ,

only then you know what is love .

im blogging ~ lols .
sorry all . this blog becomes quite unattactive .
now in hongkong . so boredddddd .

i extended my hair . quite nice , spent 6 hours in the salon . LOL .
ok lahs , extend hair dunnid 6 hrs , quite fast .
but the make it cruly part was terrible . hahas .
and dyed my hair pink . (:
i wanted purple . the guy say it is purple red . turn out cherry red , lilke hot pink liddat .

so sian . i subscibed the internet connection in hongkong .
but my stupid cousin always dun pay money , make me wait so long .
otherwise now can use liao !
hongkong qt four internet company . qt 3 he subscrib before , all qt bad records .
diao ....

I MISS MAPLE . TT
nw only lv46 like super slow lo ..... hais .nw whole mth cannot play .
ask the stupid jonathan help me train , train 1 wks ++ only 1 lvl TT sobbs .
better then nth ba . nw i call him everyday .
find him quite boring to talk to . like he dunno how to talk that kind lo .
but if dun cor then he sad . what to do -.-

reallyyyyyyy wan to die TT
hahaas . hope my internet faster come . byebye (:

2007-10-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

The turth is ,
you were never once there for me ;

see people , i so nice xD updated again !
just lvled to 33 . sian lahs , thats why blog lo xDDD

dearie so fast .. lv40 le ... 3 days only leh . zzzzz
he say marry me when i lvl 50 xDD lols ! see how ~

anw dearie say today buy me couple ring for $460 ??? o.oll
true bo TT aiya ashleylau dun believe first !!!
have or nt also nvm lah ~ (=
tmr gt sch , soooooooooo boring ...
decided to choose full his and half lit . hahas , its alright ba . and im taking A-math . omg ..

yup takecares fren !

2007-10-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

the turth is ,
i just want to spend another day with you;

hahas , sorry lurhs , updated (=
hmmm .

SICK ): sadd . coughing like mad nw . zzz
anw i successfully passed sec 3 !! yay ! i cant believe it TT
will be taking full his and half lit (= and A math .

poor weili and sandy ): hope they can get push up ..

anw i spend $30.50 on maple acash = =ll .
and i lvled 30 in just 5 days ! ;D
tues is me and dear 's anni TT he will forget ba , but dun wori i will remind him de =D

lols , will be MIA-ING . msged me if anything , dun call cos will be blocking all calls . THANKS

2007-10-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

i wake up from my nightmare ,
and found that you are not mine anymore ;

alright , today was a good/bad day . hais , how to say ..
went orchad wif mummy at noon , dhen meet menghwee , vivien, pingkwang , jiayi , jc , alvin they all xD hahas ,
and i know a new friend today ! hoho , her name is tuutuu (nick name , she dislike her rl name)
yup , she is jiancheng 's stead to be . hahas ! dunno they stead already or nt lehhs ~
anw , went cini take neos , blahblah . dhen after vivien want meet her kor so we went ps .
hais , i knew that dear will be thr , zzzzzzzz . thats the worst part of the day .

at first they all went punk thr , then didnt see him . gooood . then me and tuutuu sit outside zone thr wait fer them lo , then this boy horh , keep walking up the stair then down the stair then up again , at least 4 times lehs . i didnt really bother to notice him at first , until tuutuu tell mie , that guy had been eyeing you . LOLS ! dhen i say ok ...
dhen omg , after the fifth time , he stop beside me and say , lets make friend , dhen giv me his phone . lols ! dhen i was like whatever lahs , giv jiu giv lo ;x
he sms-ing mie now xD , hahas his name is jason .

THEN , the worst part of the day , just when we are ABT to go , dear came wif his frens .....
zzzzzzzzz omg . i was sitting beside pk kor , then saw his figure , dhen i was lik OMG MY STEAD .
dhen alvin they all keep asking whr whr whr ? then ask me go call him ....
i dunno wht to do TT sobbs , dhen alvin go in and say pull him out .
i was super dulan ok . pull him out = i tell ppl to pull him out , he will b super angry at me lo ..
but in the end they didnt pull ^^
dhen everyone ask mie he is your stead leh , why are you so scare ? why didnt you just go say hi ? i dunno dunno really dunno ... so confusing i dunno wtf is wrong wif mie .. hais . i cant ans all their questions .. why am i so scare ? that he will giv me face again ? or what ? he wont lik it ? what is it ..

then went eat ba .. my mood drop all the way to 0 . dunwan to eat le lahs ..
dhen alvin say he wan leave first , dhen i also leave lo ..
after walk past again , i decided to say at least hi to him ba ..
but i knew he would giv me that face lik last time .. haiss .
and , lik expect , he did giv me the face = = just fling his arms to say hi . wtf .
dhen alvin is lik what a stead -.- so i go liao lo .
DHEN wtf lahs , so down le , still see caocao and his stead! walou , nwadays de ppl realli damn fuck de lo .
i wave at him , he was lik force a SUPER SMALL smile at me . _l_
suan le lo .

dhen take mrt , i cry and cry =.= tears keep flowing , i cant control it .
i dunwan spoil mye eyeliner lo , but it seriously keep coming out TT
the stupid group of ppl keep looking at me , look what look , nvr see ppl cry b4 is it ?
i keep thinking , why cant i keep him loving me ?
is break the only way ? i really dunwan to break .. i will be really hurt if break .. but if we continue like this , i will be very sad as well . yes , we are ''together'' , but i know deep down we are nt already . if i break wif you , wo bu she de .. ):
you said when im sad you would bite me , im sad nw , whr are you ? why didnt you bite me ? i want you to bite me .. last time you tell mie you love me 102% , but i think nw only left the most 30% ba ... is thr anyway that i can make you love me more again ? can you tell me how ?

i asked alvin shld i break wif him or nt .. but he say wait for 1 wk see how first ba .. shld i wait ??
i really dunwan to break wif you , can you break wif me instead ? i will feel better if thats the case ..
sometimes i really wonder why ppl stead i stead , why my stead liddat one ..
i really want to love you ):

the turth is tearing mie apart ,
why am i still holding bak mye tears ?
in this loniness thrs nth to fear .

2007-10-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

in this lovely world ,
i tot we are fated to be together ;

HOLIDAY IS SO FUCKING BORING LAHHHHS . zzzzzzzzz
wake up , eat , slp again == then wake up , eat , play computer , watch tv , slp again ==
so whole day , i am just slping and slping . zzz
so sian , tot dear will pei wo ): but , hais , he just chiong his maple lahs .. TT saddd

just nw vivien asked mie , is last long so hard to you ?
i have been thinking , maybe yes , to me last long is very hard .
i dunno why , im sure really love him
i really want to last 3 years wif him , lik he say before . but , issit what i do is nt enough ? i tried my best to be nice to them , to spend all my time with time , to be thr for them whenever they ask me to , sms and everything , issit still nt enough ?
i just want someone who love me truly , to sayang me when i am sad , to hug me tight and say i will nvr leave you ,, issit that hard ?

the turth is turth after all .
hais , suan le . maybe love is nt for ppl lik me -.-
tmr going orchad xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
sian ah , )):

2007-10-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

give all your love to me ,
cos thats what i need right now ;

today went kbox wif weili , sarah , cynn ;DD hahas !
SO FUNNN , I LOVE KBOX MAN . LOLS .
the stupid thing until 7pm only TT can until 9pm leh ! sian lo ..

then take 2 times neoprints . LOLS ! it is so fun lahs , will be scanning in soon ;D
hahahahhas .

holiday is sooooooooooooooooooooo boring omg TT
slp until 12pm eat then slp again . zzzzzz . cos nth to do . thinking weather make new char to pei dear play . sian lo . (:

takecares

2007-10-10T18:21:00.000+08:00

forget about tomorrow ,
and just enjoy with me today ;

today last day of exam ! HAHA ! FREEDOM ~
went bugis with weili laopo ! hahahas xDD
lovess , was sitting outside the stores waiting for it to open = =
cos went thr too early , zz .

go thr spend $50 .. NO MONEY LE LAH ! liew , bought a jean skirt , yellow colour duno what top , and black tube (x
omg , not enough money ! i still want to buy the pink tube and the black colour hocker or dunno call wad . zzzzzz DAMN NICE LAHS , knn TT

And i combine with weili's shopping blog <3 (earn money mahs) ;D
do visit horh ! http://shoppingcity.blogspot.com
if want me link you for advertisment do tag thr xD

And tmr going wif my darlings to kbox ! yay ~ my desire (x
& dear dun so sad le lahs , my bad , i love you (:

2007-10-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

love is what i need ,
so show me with all your loves ;

(REPOST; im sorry , this is edited .)

Everyone ! ;D
yeayea im posting again heh x33
lots of things happened this two days , makes me lose concentrate in my studies .. hais , but i really dunwan to retain just because of this -_-ll

To ******* :
i tot you were trying to b nice the other day , but looks lik i was wrong again.
stop saying you miss mie lahs come on ,,
two weeks ago , i asked you for patch ish you dunwan de lo ,
so stop dreaming that i will b on your bed or whatever happiness in the past lahs ,,
cos its all over .
wan fuck go kill your father first dhen fuck wif your mother lahs , ccb _l_
promise you it will b damn shiok lo .
& although i dun love you anymore , but i dun understand why you want to kana expel and join chup lo ...
the future ahead is yours , and i cant do anything abt it , its nt mye daiji already anw .
but as a fren , i dunwan you to do stupid things .

Credits to gary , kenn , qihan , PIG , joleen , jiancheng kor (:
hahas , thanks all of you , i finally realised how stupid i've been .
lols , this morning pig tell mie you love him so much dhen let him fuck lo . zzz .
hahas ! i know he dun mean it lahs , but dhen i went tell gary ;x
then gary say wad kind of fren is this ? kp . lols .
dhen he keep reminding mie dun trust guys too much -.-
i know lahss ,, promises are meant to be broken rights ? (:
i heard this before from Ivan two mths ago ? lols , thats the result for nt hearing the elderly ;x

For 1 thing ,
i do believe that females are made to get cheated by males ,
and sweettalks are always always the sweetest ! ;P

dhen pig tell mie he doing pcc sai . LOLS !
ask mie wan join , he pay taxi fee =.= zzzzz ...
dhen i say lazy , raining , dunwan ! lols ..

Dhen ken tell mie will find better guys de lahs ,
yea everyone says that .
But i wont believe anymore lo , just when you tot he is the ''better'' guy,
then boom ! he's just another trash . lols .

Right after i off the com , jk and kelvin smsed ask mie break wif him le ah ..
zzzzzzzzz .. I DUN WAN STEAD WIF THEM LAHS .
so say patch liao lo . ;x

For PIG :
last long with Renee alright ? Dun always qurrel with her lahs ,
aiyoo , see lah , ppl cry to you on the phone lahs , from experience tell me that she really love you alright ? Cos when a girl cry to you , she wants you to know you are very important to her (:
And i can see you love her too (: The moment you tell me you dunno wan kup or nt and in the end you didnt kup shows that you really do . Maybe just nt that must YET ;x

A relationship can only last long when both party give in (:
And feel and believe in true love when you still do alright ? Dun b like me ;D
Call mie if anything happened uh ? Always to your service !
x33 mye one& only pet pig
you are blessed by xASHH ;D

& i will pay $6.50 tmr , hais , just get it over and done with . zzz .

120407 , 150807 , 260907
dates i will nvr nvr forget ! ;D

i dun believe in forever love ,
only beautiful memories x33

2007-10-08T21:05:00.001+08:00

someday , i swear that i'll forget
every breath that we took together ;

so sian ,, so take some zilian pics ba ((;
today ah , lost $6.50 lo . hahas ~

Math paper , actually it is quite easy lahs ,, just that i duno how to do -.- LOLS .
that thing really make me lost concentrate lo ,
do until half way start daydreaming liao -.-

Dhen after the first paper amanda say , aiyoo thinking of your zon rite .
LOLS !
dhen in the canteen that time giv them $6.50 ah .. everybody so surprise ;x

thanks fer everybody seriously (:
especially my sarah laogong and weili laopo <3
yijing and sandy was helping mie alot too ! hahahs .
loveeeeeeeeeeee you all ~

i promise i will be alright soon kk ? (:
love&misses ~

2007-10-07T10:20:00.000+08:00

even though i know you will walk away,
my life, with you, i want to share ;

posting at 10.22am ((:
LOLS ! nw msning with this dunno wad guy sai , he damn funny sai . he said,
'' can i ask you a ques ? ''
'' wad ? '' -me
'' wad is your bra colour nw ? '' LOLS ?
'' you know for wad ? ''
'' your pic make me hot and stream '' ?_? LOL .
'' black . '' (it wasnt black ;x)
'' oh so sexy '' -..................................-ll
dhen he ask '' you dare to do kissing ? '' lols , is he lame or wad ? hu dun dare to do kissing -.- pls lahs . dhen he ask '' dhen can i kiss you ? '' no ,

yup then nvr talk le . LOLS ! lame lahs , see pic jiu horny, noob ;x
hmmmmmm new good news !
patch wif dear ytd night ((;
hahas . i was talking to gary on the phon , dhen on msn dear suddenly ask want come back to me ? lol ? i ask him why , tell me the reason first . dhen he say he gt no reason ......
but in the end i say alright and go bak to him ;x (so unlike my style -.-ll )

but then i dun really feel good abt this thing , dunno why .
i feel like he like nt like last time like that , feel so distance . haisss .
did i think too much ?

&thanks gary fer comforting me 1hr30mins ytd ! :D
& frens , no $6.50 for your YET . ;x man man wait till your die ba ;D

ILY ZONTEOZIQI (:

you broke my heart once ,
and yet i give you another chance,
to break it again .
i wish you could cherish it this time .

2007-10-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

close your eyes ,
&let mye love be your only guild

so sad .. i broke up wif zon yesterday ... 051007 is the day .
hais , i dunno the excet reason , but i think thats the reason .
sorry , i also dunno wad im toking abt here .

i know i can ask for patch yesterday , but i really dont see the point for doing that .
i really love him alot , he say he love me alot too , but i dont see how ..
he ask me if i can prove to him about love ,
i wanted to , but i know deep inside i cant do that , therefore , i didnt patch wif him ytd ..
even if i say yes ytd , this day will come sooner or later .
we only together for 12 days , seriously , i didnt expect it to be that fast .
i tot we will last at least 4 months ...

i cried my whole night ytd .. and in the morning i gt a swollen eye ,
how nice ...
ytd after i break , derrick called to comfort me for 15 minutes (:
he do help a little , hahas , he say '' no worries lahs , you have a never ending supply of suitors '' LOLS !
then after say call bak nvr ... boxim sai .
have been reading this bk , i close it immediately after reading a few pages and cried again .
cos inside the male char said the same thing that dear promised ...
ofcoarse , the male char keep his promise and dear didnt ...
how disappointing , i really love you you know ..
oops sorry , you are nt my dear anymore ...
actually i tot of continueing the relationship without love and just give him that thing ytd , but then this morning pigpig reminded me again .. he said '' that is nt llove girl ''

i always tot that love is not base on that , and that if i give my true heart to that person he would love me back again , he just proved me wrong .
realised how true wad khoon said the other day , how fake and cruel reality are .
thanks fer all those who cheer me up yesterday and today (:
& gary is calling to comfort me ltr (: hahas .
& frens , i will pay your $6.50 on monday (:

- i would keep my promise , i would be happy because you are happy (:
i promised that i would love you even when you leave me . so i still do .

you said you will be my boyfriend,
my life partner .
all those lies and empty promises,
im disappointed .

2007-10-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

wish that never come true,
& dreams remains as dreams ;

/MIA-ING
im sorry everyone

today EOY , totally fuck up lahs , writing compo that time write until pen no ink . lol ? how to write sai . nb _l_ . then geog no time do the whole paper . zzzz
Yesterday while toking on the phone with dear , mother suddenly come snatch mye phone sai . fuck her lahs , si woman . im sorry dear (:
And today , left mye wallet in sch under the table . lol?
no phone + no wallet = dead ?
into CrestFallen mode .

& dear ; imissyoo*

but a tag a day makes ashley happier ;D

2007-10-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

to be there for the special someone,
is a pleasure .

okie , went to nicola meii after sch ((: hahas . didnt do much thing lahs , chit chat abit only .
today going after school that time dear's fren who act as dear msg-ed mie .
it is quite stupid actually quite lame actually , cos the very first msg he send i already know it is not him already . lols , wan play play dhen play wib him lo ;d .
reasons why i think it is nt him :
1) his first msg is hello xD .
-dear wont msg hello '' xD '' ~.~
2) his 2nd msg wrote dear, wan go mt3 wif me this sat ? why nvr go mye hse ?
-lols ? suddenly ask so many ques when its quite irrelevant .
3) his way of writing .
-his question marks are '' ?? '' , dear's question marks are ''.?''
4) when i asked him why suddenly change no.
- he say dad con phon card . any kuku parents wont con phon card and dun con phone .
5) when i say i going cine .
- he say wa exam le still go out . lols knowing dear he wont say that . ~.~
6) he ask mie say add his fren in friendster and msn .
- any normal bf wont ask their gf to add their frens email .

p.s. so dun think i am kuku , i have common sense and physiological . lols x3
then in the end , he finally tell me sorry sorry is zon tell me to lie to you and wan me to sad o.o??
lol ? suddenly abit shock and disappointed . somemore he say he tell me because he cant stand zon liddat to me, dhen still say what replacement . lols, omg i lan until nid people help me find a replacement ?
dunno weather to believe him or nt .
dhen i quite angry dhen go msg and scold dear abit .
but then he say he really love me and trust him . hais .
dhen his fren ask me for email . lols ? at that moment , to me , it is despo-ness .
in the end , decided to trust dear ba . i really love him (:

today in sch make 1 bond wif cynn , and 1 bond with amanda, weili, yijing, daphy . the bond wif cynn is realli wad lahs , is to stay until my O lvl x_x . aiyaa , know that sure lose lahs , nid pay her $2.50 . knowing sure lose still sign ._. , buy myself a wish that will never come true ba . lols ;x i am pathetic .

TRUST , its a simple and complicated word . lols .
sometimes , it is really good to just trust urself .
saw a fren today, just ditched her bf just because she FEEL like ditching .
wtf lahs , the boy damn good to her one norhs , really scacifice things for her .
and nt buy saying it , but actually show by actions . lols .
nowadays so hard so hard to find such good bf , and she just ditch LIKE THAT .
pity pity pity .

want to trust him so deeply , but scare in the end up lik him again . fucker who break every single one of his promises . hais , shldnt say abt the past anymore ((: must forget forget !

nw im at mac wif sandy and her bf xDDD hahahas ! im really scare of EOY ~ TT .
& im losing my voice TT .........

yup takecares everyone (:

2007-10-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

behind every love story,
is that it never had a happy ending;

so sian , nw 1am le . hmmmm , today still gt sch worhx ):
today went JE lo , dao mei dao si ~.~
at first blur until sit the wrong way of train , then went library x_o
the guard stop me and say i steal his book . wtf ?
then went x-zone walk around , nothing happened . good .
dhen went fairprice help mother buy veg , come out that time drop all the coins on the floor .
haisssssss , cant stand it liao , started sniffing on the street -.-
then the passer-bys help me pick up money lo ..
go home so early , listening all my technos in the phone for the whole dayx . sian no life ._.
mother nvr scold mie at all today , dunno ish gd or bad -.-

whole day mye phone also nvr ring , so sian ._.
at 11 msged dear , found out he still mt3ing ~.~ haiss , faster go home lah ~ then he dunno say wad nid walk 1 hr then no more mrt ?? huh ?? dhen nvr reply mie le . TT *worried*
dunno whr he is now ._. hiass .
writing board spoil . stupid lahs , suan .

tmr meeting nicola meii ((: yay ~

2007-09-30T11:30:00.000+08:00

baby everytime i dream,
i wish we are one step closer;

posting soooooo early , nth much to write sai .
but bobian nth to do ~.~
loneness overcame me ;
think dear still slpping ba . haiss .
sian , gt a super huge scolding from mama in a few months ;
she say my money too much dun giv me weekly allowance le ~.~
zzz dun feel lik arguing with her , no money jiu no money lo , the most starve to death only -.-

now arguing with gary in msn . lols . friendster more _l_ lahs , msn is okiee . cannot upload photos one . hmph sua le . his pm write ''dote your loves one abit more each day and you will get a smile in return'' lols ! so kajiao him tell me how to dote sai . LOL . say till he speechless ah ;x
wahahas .

& the stupid hse owner come collect rent , zzz i just cant have some quiet time alone uh ? _l_
@%(&)%

hmmm . maybe i nid go MIA-ing again le . oh well .

xiaotears' stead arm . lols so cool ;x

2007-09-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

i seek the turth,
not the lies;

today went orchard wif mama to meet her friend ..
until 4++ liddat then i went ps find dear ..
he say his father want him go back soon , but since i at orchard liao so i thought nvm lahs go find him awhile lo ..
saw dear at x-zone .. dunno why he like nt very happy seeing me liddat )): ...
dhen saw kershaw at ddr thr again , so went say hi .. dhen i also saw caocao at thr wif the glasses boy and 2 girls .. hais nvr see him 1 and a half mths le .. so went say hi ba .. dhen i think his stead like glare/stare at me .. make me so paiseh , so went bak watch kershaw play ddr lo .. haiss so sian , so call jk weather he can come down or nt .. dhen he say yea , wait him 1hr lehs .. sian ..
dhen after that jk come , we go star factor lo ..
saw dear at star factor ._.?? tot he say nid go home ...
nvm so i go pat his back ba .. dhen he also like nt happy liddat .. sad ..

after jk pei wo go home , on the way he give me a lecture/scold until i almost cry in the mrt ..
dhen at my block down thr slack awhile ba .
he keep saying deardear bad to me as a stead .. i say no .
he even ask me wheather wan him find a very very chio girl to test dear , but i dunwan ):
he say he would be waiting for me .. hais i no mood to play with him lahs ..
dhen go that time he ask can hug me or nt , he say hug only nt kiss
but, i say i promised dear that i wont do anything he dun like behind his back so i refused .

& dear , im sorry k ? maybe i make you angry today , sorry sorry . forgive me pls TT
you are my one and only love (:

2007-09-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

i see you, beside me,
but its only a vision of wad it used to be;

sry fer late posting !! im just toooooooo lazy ;p
but dear wan me post so bobian ): hahas ,

anw didnt slp well last night at sch daydreaming abt dear ((; lols .

siao eh today , gt 3 periods of math . stupid mrs chen take the gel period do math too -.-
zzz but its ok lahs cos only copy ans from the computer nia . nth goes in actually ;x
during pw , free period . LOLS . i love slping on cynn's shoulder ;D so nice shaking somemore . but too noisy cant slp . sad TT
at 12.40pm , guess hu msged me ? suprise sai , jiahua leh . LOLS so rare . i tot is dear after msged me lo TT saddddddddddddd .
yup , skipped farewell party , sure kana by mrs elaine chan again . haiss . went to KAP wif weili, sarah , sandy . lols . suppose to study , but obviously wif weili around thrs no way ;p . dhen that detention girl racheal's bf at cab . (botak ~.~ cos he play rugby) dhen after that , sandy tell her alan (stead to be) to come , she so bad sai , want to ditch kenneath liao ;x (eh sandy , you think carefully can? i think kenneath more shuai lo ._.) oh add on , almost fall down the stairs in KAP again ._. and i gt a new name , blur sotong TT
after go busstop all stupid sandy fault lahs , see wad see acs boy until miss the bus lah . had to wait for the next one for 20mins . waste mye slping time ! then go down, and buy my beloved sweettalk ;D zzz today i tried the stupid honeydew flavor , buy it doesnt blend well wif the stawberry jelly . waste money TT (sandy sponser me $1 !) LOL . go home nvr change then jump on bed and slp ! until 9pm mother wake me up eat dinner . sooooooooooooo hungry , didnt eat anything ytd ;x

Oh, nw toking to deardear on the phone ! ilovehim (x

zilian ;d

guess hu playing MT3

tou pai

;p

2007-09-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

even though every relationship comes to an end,
im glad that you appear once in my life;

today seen the stupid prefect FOUR times .
see her realli realli dao mei de you know . i dun wan to admit but its true .
k lahs , thank you fer blessing my bus to cm and mama to go work .
BUT , still ~.~ bad things happen is , i fall down the stairs .
DHEN , realise my friendster kana hack . wtf .
k , after sch , i chiong home and jump on my bed for 2 hours before meeting kuku gary .
cos i wan get bak my psp ._. sry dear ;d
dhen, wake up, found out my friendster kana hack , but mummy rushing me out of the hse .
so on mrt that time tell dear help me change pw ((:
k went bugis , kuku bought one jacket cost $45 ._. (so ex) dhen we went to auntie smth (dunno her name) 's shop dhen dunno why she so nice today ._. gib me one free milo tee-shirt ! wah i love it so cute !~ dhen kuku saw a quite cute shirt but dunwan buy . lols . say cm next time .
dhen we went ps to play MT3 ((: *free* =D sian i say wan control the gear myself dhen he keep helping me control . wtf ._. . zzz nvm . dhen after nid go liao , cos he nid go woodlands meet xiaom; huimin his stead to be (: dhen i say careful ah , ltr you kana molested . LOL .
dhen went shop buy starhub prepaid . *sign* no money le lah ~
dear nw sound sad o.o ?? hmmm but he say nt . ): but he do sound sad lahs . ily ((:
and i gt back my psp le ! FINALLY ~ i miss it o !

;my new tee , quite nice uh ? ;dd

& stupid hacker , if i know hu you are , i'll make sure you go to hospital ((:

2007-09-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

i wish your hands will hold me tight,
and bring me towards the future;

almost midnight le ;p
today so happy worhx ! morning see the stupid prefect once nia .
during chinese , stupid alex, sarah , claudia, yijing all bully me sai .
cos teacher is toking abt this ''teenager shld nt tan lian ai. '' (lols , pls lahs . )
dhen she ask us suggestion ofcoarse i say i also nt agree lahs . is lik duh ~
dhen that benben alex look at me and point dhen say you gt stead lorhs . wtf lehs .
dhen i told teacher dunhav , they all bully me one . LOL (laoshi believe ;d i win ! ) dun wan gt into another lecture ;d . bleahs .
gt 4 free periods . LOLS . dhen after that wait fer stupid sandy ;d
dhen wait bus go home bath then go meet dear le .
sian . everytime go home rush like siao one . dhen go outram meet dear ((:
wahs , at first say wearing blue colour dhen end up wearing black colour sai !
dhen we take train together to hougang meet ivan give him money . LOL .
he ask me gt contact derrick bo i say yea i just asked him to go body check ytd . LOL
zzzzz . i miss my fifty dollar . money all fry le )): *someone owe me $110*
dhen went DBG ((: watch dear play MT3 , so pro worhx ;x . then went eat dinner at long john silver ((: silly dear wan let me drink all the lemon tea dhen he himself only eat ice ): aiyouus !
dhen went watch a movie . dun realli know wad it toking abt x_O . oh well , doesnt matter ^^
dhen he pei wo go outrum ;d aiya, went x-zone b4 that , dunno why kershaw nt thr today x_O wan show him my lovely dear mah ! (x
hahas , hope faster finish EOY dhen can go out wif dear again everyday le xDD woots ~

nw toking on the phone wif JK GANGAN . LOLS so long nvr tok le . he tok abt his llovessss and ask me fer stead again seh ;x rejected him 2 mths ago ;x . SORRY , but i love my dear too much le (x . haha ! (manage to make him gib me blessing in the end)

- gary ah , sorry cant pei you buy clothes on sat le ));
& I LOVE MY DEAR 1314 ;d

2007-09-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

no phrase to be written,
cos my mind is full of trash nw;

hais no mood sai , today see the stupid prefect once today ...
after sch , went JE wif sandy to meet her bf to study together , dhen i leave first ..
just nw take lift smsing baby and yaojie daddy blurblur go out at 5th lvl .. nid walk 5 lvls staircase sai .
mama went work, leave me alone in this lonely hse again..
suan le go hm on msn , si derrick the gigolo online, saw him msn thr write single so go make him dulan . play wif him awhile dhen in the end he write miss you . zzz sua le normal ending .
just nw qurrel abit wif baby )): hais im such lousy gf always make him sad de ..
hais dun feel lik writing le . byes .

&dear, i really really love you.

2007-09-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

i look upon tomorrow,
for you are there waiting for me;

BLOGGING . ~.~
TODAY IS SO FUN . ofcoarse the previous part was TERRIBLE .
kana scolded by mrs lee alllllllllllll the way during PE . end up my leg bleeding . wtf lahx .
hais , see that stupid perfect 4 times today . everytime see her also no luck one .
haisss . no mood in sch , after sch went KAP .
then the fun things came ;d
wahahhahs ! pei yijing go KAP *study* LOLS .
dhen weizong called , dhen i throw the phon to sandy . Dhen she act my bf ask him SHOO . LOLS . he really believe lehs ! he ask why my voice liddat one dhen sandy say gt she gt soarthroat. SO DAMN FUNNY LAHS . we laughing till the whole KAP look at us lo .
thanks sandy baobei ;d i realli appreciates ur help and ur thick skinness ;d
but the sad news is .. he still continue at night ~.~ WTF LAHS . this kind of ppl no face one ~.~

dhen sandy say gt this guy shuai sai , dhen me and yijing ask her go hav the new fashion way of jioing and say '' hello, may i hav ur email pls ? '' LOL . dhen after tat we change idea, ask her go take the coke dhen walk past the table and pour it on him , dhen look deeply into his eyes and say, '' oh my god ! im soooooooo sorry . can i hav ur number pls ? i will help u wash and return you . '' LOLS dhen we offer her 20 bucks . ;x alot ok, 4 hrs of my working ! hahas . dhen she say dunwan , if only ask handphone dhen she go . LOLS . ask handphon no nia bo fun sai ;x oh well too bad ~ its nt everyday 20 bucks drop from the sky . wahaha ;x

Dhen me and yijing act evil tell sandy pei one Population density so to *help* her .
giv her 2 minutes to rmb , if you cant rmb , you are list STUPID . LOL .
and i will hav a bond wif you , if you cant pei in 2 minutes you will buy us a large fries , but if you cannot pei correctly dhen we will giv you another chance , dhen if still cannot , you will treat us the whole meal . LOLS . ;x
dhen sandy gt ONE word wrong . LOL dhen we make her buy large fries .
SHE REALLI GO BUY LEH . wahseh . LOL .
dhen ask her sponser me and yijing 50cents go buy ice cream .
the stupid sundae lahx , after eating stomach ache sai ! dhen sandy wan walk me hm ;x
i say no nid . LOL . siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

at night went poker wif karen , junping , glend they all . LOLS . i only lost 2 times leh .
must b dear giv me luck ! hahahs xD dhen went sweettalk buy my loves (x
just cant slp without drinking one everyday . LOL

& 230907; 7.52pm , I LOVE YOU AND MY ONLY LOVES ;d

2007-09-23T18:36:00.000+08:00

no matter wad happen,
you still hold a place in my heart forever;

some pics i've took recently ((;

sorry for nt posting awhile x))
hahahs ! & ihave stop MIAING (: great ;d
hmm nt much happen this few days , just went eat seafood wif mama ytd and went JE today for fun ;x . hahas .
& just get to know a person in FRIENDSTER (: he is quite nice ;d
cant believe first day know already lik so close liddat ;d
and he promise to clone me one MT3 card ! hahas cant wait ;x
his one and only clone card to ASHLEY (: (so honour ;d)
hahas . meeting him on wed . he pei me go hougang return money to ivan ! ;d FINALLY ~
hahas . this makes me wan break wif ahhfan even more ;x (im a terrible person)
hmmmmmmmm . & the stupid weizong still haven get tired of fan-ing me .
oh well, just have to wait uh (:

-cant wait fer wed !
& thanks ken(technokidd) fer sending me all the lovely technos !
(do leave me a tag ;d)

2007-09-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

for the stupidness i've made,
i'll pay it instandly wif all my heart;

as promise for WEILI . i posted ! ;dd hahahs .
anw today was home econ exam day ! aiyouus ~ gt 2 fire in my class . hahas so funny .
BUT WEILI IS A STUPIDDDDDDDDDDD ASSHOLE TODAY . SHE SIBEI DOMEI SAI .
at first in the canteen, she accidently pushed ranchel's bag onto the floor .
LOL . then all the rose syrup spilled . diao ;x
dhen went bugis shopping wif her . walk till mye leg all suan . haix
DHEN BECAUSE OF STUPID WEILI WHO WANTED TO GO UP THE 2ND LVL AGAIN TO SEE HER JACKET .
dhen you know hu i saw ? you cant fucking believe this .
MY VERY OWN BAOBEI BOYFRIEND AND HIS FRIENDS ! DIAOOO . (he didnt see me)
dhen i went hide ~.~ thinking wheather say hi or nt but dhen when i walk that road again he went inside the shop -.....- so i just walk past and go . after msg him i saw you ~.~
this is PATHETIC . wtf lahx . i so scare for wad ~.~
my own baobei lehx ! TT im disappointed in you ashley ~~
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

so from that sec onwards , my happy mood of 90% drop all the way to 1% ..
haiSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

&maybe ltr going chiong MT3 wif sandy. hahas .

2007-09-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

loving is nt abt how to forget,

but how to forgive;

Rofl ! blogging again ((: hahahs , cos the new blog too empty ;x
wahhaas ! anw just nw went grocery shopping wif sandy ! ;d
sooooooooo happy ~ ^^ hahahas grocery shopping super fun sai xP
but spend alot of money lahx .. $40++ cos see gd things the buy already ;x

hmmmmmmmmmm, ltr going slp ba ;d
this few days so sian . & a certain person make me superrrrrrrr irratated . haixx dun say le .
1 hr 15 calls ++ ~.~

& i found something quite nice from absolute steven's profile ! ;d
if see dun mind i post here uh ((:

Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..

When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel Separation from her man...

Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who are Interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken,they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls...
When girls are heartbroken,they try to find his Characteristics from other guys...

Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...

yup thats all ~
&i want my life to be more colourful ^^

2007-09-18T21:44:00.001+08:00

losing the precious thing,
and the sadness dries my heart;

SORRY ALL FOR MAFAN-ING YOO TO RELINK
will continue to MIA-
takecares ;;